Britney Speaks: "What The Hell Was I Thinking?" (VIDEO)

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NEW YORK - If you're wondering what was going through Britney Spears' head during her erratic era, you are not alone _ so does she.

"I sit there and I look back and I'm like, 'I'm a smart person. What the hell was I thinking?'" Spears said in an interview to air on MTV on Nov. 30, two days before the release of her new album. "I've been through a lot in the past two or three years, and there's a lot that people don't know."
The 90-minute special, "Britney: For The Record," was executive-produced by Spears' manager Larry Rudolph. It features behind-the-scenes footage of the singer and her talking about her life over the past two years.

She's got a lot to talk about: In that time span, she has gotten divorced, been through a custody battle, gone to rehab, had very public meltdowns and had one memorably bad performance at the MTV Video Music Awards.

Now on the comeback trail, Spears is releasing her sixth album, "Circus," on Dec. 2, her 27th birthday.

Spears says she's hoping this TV special will "set the record straight" about her life.

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Comments

[vmonter]

You were thinking you didn't want to be a puppet anymore, then you noticed the bank account was empty, so you swallowed the pill and put on your barbie outfit again.

[JScott]

"I sit there and I look back and I'm like, 'I'm a smart person. What the hell was I thinking?'"

She's smart?

And if she was not a celeb with out the $, would she get off this lightly and have media access for stuff such as this?

Sadly not.

[rpr]

Intelligence is what's distributed most fairly in the world:
Everybody thinks they have plenty.

[gorgol]

I've fallen off cliffs and asked myself the same thing...but you can crawl back and be stronger than ever.
Sometimes the hardest lessons in life can be the best.

[stayinsouth1981]

It sounds like her thinker is broke and she didn't know what she was talking about.

I think she has some issues with mental illness. Sometimes, there is better living through chemistry.

[rpr]

Actually, there is some evidence that pregnancy changes a woman's brain chemistry, which can lead e.g. to post partum depression and increase the effects of pre-existing mental issues.
That plus whatever she's been smoking/dropping/sniffing is probably a good explanation.

[orangepetal]

Good luck Britney, glad to see you are getting things back on track !!!

[gazissax]

Honey, one bipolar sufferer to another, I can relate. Stay on your meds and if side effects are a problem, talk to the doc before doing anything.

[ZellaBee]

My take on it is this: everyone has to rebel sometime,to become their own person. If it doesn't happen as a teen, it happens later. Hers happened publicly and the media made it worse by constantly reporting it and keeping her under the microscope. She also had no real guidance until she hit bottom. Her ex husband was not a gem either. He used her big time. She is lucky to have come out of it. i hope she can continue to stay positive and grow up. She is still very young and her growth will only serve to add to her talent if she lets it. Just my armchair psychology.

[majorteddy]

Britney. go take a nap. for about five years.

[PineyWoods]

I wish Britney well personally, but I'm not going to cheer for the professional success of someone who's contribution to the culture is "Gimme More." Not exactly the greedy, selfish kind of values we need to promote in America right now.

[dac253]

Growing up in the public eye must really be something. I never cared for this girl one way or the other until she started melting down. Now, hopefully, she'll be able to take control of her life and shine like a real star.

[jesther]

A bigger question: What was she thinking when she said we should back the president's decision without question? In September, 2003 Spears said, "Honestly, I think we should just trust our president i
n every decision he makes and should just support that, you know, and be faithful in what happens" as she smacked her gum like a millionaire slob who happens to shop at Wal-Mart.

The decisions made by Bush (the president not Britney's) has had a greater effect on her life as well as ours over recent years and yet we get this vacuous expose on her personal turmoil instead.

If she wants to be truly rehabilitated it is going to require a lot less singing, talking, partying and exposing and a lot more reading, thinking, helping and sobriety. Otherwise the BS as we know it will continue.

[strangerinthenight]

You may be right in everything you narrated, St. Jesther, but still, I can't condemn Spear. Could you find it your heart to at least hope for her recovery ? According to the medical records presented to the Court, Spears have variety of bi-polar issues and she was just 23 when these issues unravel. According to published reports, she is under medications to control her mental issues. She is trying. Could your heart take that into consideration ?

St Jesther, is there in your heart a place seeing Spears find her way to redemption, or is it because she has her own political view. Is that it ? And since you are so DIVINE, why do you begrudge forgiveness ? Have you forgotten, to err is human (as Spear is), and to forgive, devine ?

I am just as old as Spears. I made mistakes too, and so does every human being, maybe be even more than Spears. I am just glad I am still here. So have a heart, will you ?

[mogran]

Girl, you are look great. I wish and your family all the best.

[MakeAWish]

Britney,

Keep your head high and move on. The people who understand, accept you and love you, are the important ones. Others who try to bring you down and exploit you, are to be pitied, because they have problems far greater than yours.

[cruisepuppy7452a]

Its never easy to watch another person fall apart, whether its your own kid, relatives, friends. I always saw Brittany as a fragile girl, whom the world used up, spit out and mocked . This isn't a bad person, she was someone with a medical problem. If she had cancer nobody would have mocked her, but because she fell apart in public, they felt they had the right to do so. During her bouts of depression, she made some very human mistakes. The kind any of us could make. Post Partum makes women do things they normally would not do. I think you dont' have to agree with her mistakes, but show a bit of compassion. It is hard to bounce back under normal circumstances, much less in public and she has done this. For that, she deserves something. This is one parent who isn't going to mock her, rather, give her the Bravo she do deserves. I am not so sure I would have classified her as Bipolar, that is over used, I see her as having been stressed out. Glad she is better than ever.

[lincheryl]

Hey, as a mother I wish her well and hope she is ok now. If she is truly trying to do the right things, we should respect that.