Jodie Sweetin's Memoir: Meth, Ecstasy, Plates Of Coke After 'Sobriety'

Jodie Sweetin has found a way to make money again. Hosting a pantsless dancing competition while addicted to meth didn't work out so well, but maybe she will find a larger audience of readers interested in her long and sordid affair with drugs she describes as both socially acceptable (coke, Ecstasy) and those better done behind closed doors (meth). She tells all in her new book unSweetined.

Last year the 'Full House' middle child went 'From Meth Addict to Mom.' The transformation may not have been a full one. She gave birth to daughter Zoie in April 2008, soon fell back into her winey, if not methy, ways and split from husband Cody Herpin in November.

Here is an excerpt about her coke-fueled sobriety tour, and you can read more here:

When I got to my hotel near Marquette University in Milwaukee, Wisconsin, I slept for a few hours but when I woke up I was still dead tired. I was a mess. Luckily I had the coke to pick me back up. I did a few key bumps and headed to the lecture hall, where a sold-out crowd waited to hear me speak. I thought for sure that one of the professors would take one look at me and kick me out. But none did. They wanted to hear about the trials and tribulations of Jodie Sweetin, or at least the Jodie Sweetin I had created by appearing on Good Morning America and talking to People magazine.

I stood up at the podium, looked around the room, and put on my best TV smile. I was so disappointed in myself. I was living a complete lie. But unfortunately, guilt doesn't make you stop. I talked about growing up on television and about how great my life was now that I was sober, and then midspeech I started to cry. The crowd probably thought that the memories of hitting rock bottom were too much for me to handle. Or maybe they thought the tears were just a way for an actor to send a message that drugs are bad. I don't know what they thought.

I know what they didn't think. They didn't think I was coming down from a two-day bender of coke, meth, and Ecstasy and they didn't think that I was lying to them with every sentence that came out of my mouth. That much I do know. The little bit of coke that I had done before the speech wasn't enough to make me forget how bad I felt for doing what I was doing. The guilt was eating away at me. I was struggling to keep it together, but no one realized that. I finished. They applauded. Standing ovation. Just how I liked it. And it was over.

I was just so tired. Tired of lying. Tired of pretending to be someone that I wasn't. I took a deep breath and walked out of the lecture hall. I went back to my hotel room and buried my face in my hands. I couldn't keep doing this. It had to end.

But not today. I wiped away the tears and finished the baggie of coke.

Fuck it. I'll quit tomorrow.

UnSweetined is available for pre-order on Amazon.

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Comments

[breakingrocks]

Nothing wrong with breast implants. I don't like pancake breasts. I hope I don't sound like a boob. ( . ) ( . )

[Jaladeno]

I get your point. Actually, both of them.

[SuperMoncho]

Wow, I had no idea this girl had ended up that way. That makes me sad,

Nice chest job tho. Wouldn't mind taking her to the love shack, baby love shack

[SaraNader]

I see a stripper pole in this chesty young woman's future. Set the puppies free, Jodie! As a stripper, you could make money AND always score drugs right there in the parking lot of whatever establishment you're performing in.

[LadyAurora]

Nice way to generalize. One could assume from your post that your familiar with stripper poles and scoring drugs in the parking lot.

Not every stripper/exotic dancer is a drug user and not every strip club allows drugs to be sold any where near their establishment. I would say a good portion of strippers are nice normal girls who are just trying to make money to pay for college or to take care of their kids.

Instead of making fun of this poor girls problems, try being a little sympathetic. Drug addicition is a tough road to travel and it usually takes some people a few times to really finally quit.

[thepublicburning]

you're the worst kinda sanctimonious

[Phreejazz]

I think I read these articles mostly for the admittedly ridiculous and smug pleasure of being able to say "I have no idea who the eff this person is, or why I should give a s**t about their life."

[thats2much]

May God bless her and give her the inner strength to over come this life style. I know it can be done.

[Joye]

She is a pretty lady. Why does she need breast implants? My respect for her has gone way down.

[thedudeabides]

when it hurts bad enough, you'll change (or you'll be pushing up daisies)

[WingMann]

A good reason to make all drugs legal and cheap. It'll clean up the gene pool.

[ImissBush]

im guessin u cant write an autobio unless ur messed up?

[Kuuba]

In Bush's case, he couldn't write it because his command of the English language lacks.
"Is our children learning?" - Bush

[ImissBush]

sigh

sad 2B
u

[ImaVeteran]

You must not have any knowledge of recovery from alcohol or drug addiction.

I know of many people who relapsed with double digits of sobriety who have died from this disease.

Recovery is never ending. One must put their recovering way of life first. First before anything. That includes wife, children, job etc. Anything an addict or alcoholic places before their recovery, they will surly loose. Believe me, I know!

10 years drug and alcohol free is quite an achievement. But the most noteworthy of achievements as far as recovery goes, is to die sober.

I don't mean this in a vicious way, but what qualifies you to set the standard when someone has recovered from a horrible way of life?

I wish that I could post my e-mail address to respond to questions about recovery. All I can suggest for those suffering from chemical dependence is to attend an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting or, an Narcotics Anonymous meeting.

[Hareega]

It's never late to get off drugs. But one has to be off drugs/alcohol for at least 10 years before I can say they're completely sober.

[petzl]

Obviously ghost written.

[princeinpurplrayn]

definitely ghost written

[cruisepuppy7452a]

Number one anyone that thinks if they are in AA they are sober, I have news for ya, NOpe, its called you are just a dry drunk. Second, if she was doing drugs, she wasn't recovered from anything. Total recovery takes years, time, money and good docs and therapists to get you back on track. If you don't work at it, it won't happen, and that goes for any other namby pamby program like AA as well. ya don't go sober with a bible. Ya go sober by choice, either you choose to not be a dangerous idiot to others, or you choose jail. Sorry guys just the facts

[Poorsarah]

So what you are saying is that we can break free from these things on our own strength?

[derekw007]

Your comment is idotic. Millions of people have gotten sober through AA and other 12 step groups. I've never seen a bible in an AA meeting - and I can tell you that the whole "willpower" deal you speak of "my choice" ignores all of the scientific evidence that addict's brains are different than those who are not addicts. Besides who died and made you an expert on addiction. Even if you overcame your own addiction and got sober - all you did is overcome YOURS. What does that have to do with anyone elses?

[katrat]

Great reply I second that feeling

[princeinpurplrayn]

the problem with AA, and other comparable methods of sobriety, is this: they do not emphasize or address what you eat - food that you eat, and vitamins to be taken, and other things to take in your body BESIDES MEDICATION, pills, and the like. It also does not emphasize, simply put, exercise, but these days the word 'exercise' is a dirty word, much of which has to do with advertising from companies in the 'exercise business'. Gawd how I hate those stupid commercials with people like Chuck Norris haulking some idiotic machine that is basically engineered to gather dust. For example, I heard a report of a few men getting off crack by becoming athletes. This is what I'm talking about. The AA program also does not emphasize 'education', and by this I mean the possibility of the person to go to school, night school or the like, towards an Associate's, Bachelor's or Masters or what have you, to become a smarter better person. Learning a foreign language, for example, or learning mathematics, science or philosophy. These three things are so important in man's basic path towards attainable happiness, yet I do not see programs like AA stressing them at all. A program is highly needed, but the Christianity aspect needs to be replaced with real strong emphasized solutions, - nutrition and vitamin therapy, exercise in a myriad of forms, and education at an increasing level. There should also be government funding. Thanks

[grapeguru]

Contrary to popular belief, AA is not based on Christianity, although many find their source of strength in Jesus Christ. Opening yourself to a higher power is not the same the same as becoming a Christian. Read up on the history of AA and get back to us.

[derekw007]

It seems to me that everything you know about AA could fit on the head of a pin. Learning quantum physics is impossible if I'm loaded all the time. I know of many AAs that have went from the dregs of skid road to holding advanced degrees and having wonderful jobs.

But they got sober FIRST. And they didn't do it by taking vitamins or eating arugala. Or going to night school.

They did it by doing exactly the same steps that have worked for millions of others.

[grapeguru]

Your ignorance is sad, but not surprising. Few people can speak of addiction/recovery properly.

[princeinpurplrayn]

One must open themselves to a higher power in order to overcome addiction then? You cannot be an agnostic? Or an atheist? The best way to overcome addiction is to say to yourself "Let me withdraw from the judgment of reason the existence of God, let me have my one irrational whim and I will be a man of reason about all else." Maybe you believe the addict must believe in the monstrous absurdity called Original Sin. I wasn't just talking about AA here, who are you grape, the AA police? Answer this - if Jesus knew he was God, i.e. he turned water into wine, then he knew everything, - certainly that he would die on the cross. So it was a piece of cake - 3 days? No problem. And you say 'He suffered and died for your sins.' And it was easy for him. Nice short comment. You talk as if you DO have all the answers. Not likely. And you don't agree that nutrition/vitamin therapy, exercise, and education have any value? It has to be all a belief in a 'higher power'? No wonder there's such a rate of relapse.

[Ellyllon]

Should I know who Jodie Sweetin is? Because I don't.

[unhhockey]

Do you know who Bob Sagat is?

[Jaladeno]

How rude!

[KristinNoelle]

Stephanie Tanner from Full House

[kitty3363]

I know right? I had to read the freaking article just to figure out who she is.

[Jaladeno]

Especially strange question considering that it appears you have Kimmy Gibler's picture as an avatar.

[jonjon358]

Um, nice cans.

[okjoel]

Yes. They're not real but spectacular anyway.

[TheBaffler]

I bet the original taters were just fine.

[Jaladeno]

spudlicious.