Sadie Frost In 'Crazy Days': I Slashed My Arm With Scissors During Marriage To Jude Law

08/16/2010 10:09 am ET | Updated May 25, 2011

In her memoir 'Crazy Days' out next month, Sadie Frost opens up about her crippling depression during the time she was married to Jude Law.

Frost, now 45, met Law when she was a married 25-year-old mother and he was a 19-year-old unknown. She writes (via the Daily Mail):

I knew that by even entertaining thoughts of Jude, I was jeopardizing an idyllic home life, the most secure relationship I'd ever had. I crushed my unwelcome ideas about Jude, but it wasn't easy.

They married in 1997, had three children together and divorced in 2003--in large part, she says, because of her illness, which started after their son Rafferty was born:

Eventually I wanted to press the self-destruct button. One night I arranged a babysitter and went out. I partied all night and got home the next day racked with guilt. I was sitting at my dressing table, not feeling anything - just numb. I watched my hand slowly pick up a pair of scissors. It was as if I was being sucked down lower into the chair and the scissors seemed to be drawn to my arm. I appeared to have cut myself. Blood dripped down my arm. There was no sense of panic within me - I just felt empty.'

Their relationship came to an end during a trip to Thailand:

Jude and I flew to Thailand separately. Right away I knew something was wrong. I knew it was over, the way he looked at me. I was underweight, depressed and scared. We got through the holiday, then we had to go to Los Angeles for a meeting with our joint agency. When we got to our hotel room I could bear it no longer. I asked him if he loved me but he didn't need to reply - I knew the answer. The moment had arrived and I knew the relationship with the man I loved was over.

Law issued a 100-page writ last month demanding that all passages of the book referring to their marriage be removed. He got a settlement in court.

Read more about Sadie's first meeting with Jude, her breakdown, her stay in a psychiatric ward and the unraveling of their marriage here.

Gwyneth Paltrow & Bryce Dallas Howard have also talked about suffering postpartum depression.

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