With a hit television show and a successful music career, Brandy Norwood was one of the biggest stars of the 1990s, but her life was far from perfect.
On tonight's episode of VH1's "Behind the Music," the 33-year-old reveals her struggle with an eating disorder as a teen.
"I wanted to be thin. That was my main thing. So I started not taking care of myself -- not eating properly, not eating at all, diet pills, regurgitating, all all of these things that girls do," she revealed to VH1.
The singer and actress explained that even with all her No. 1 singles, a starring role on the series "Moesha" and a decent film career, she always felt as if she was falling short.
"People don't understand that being the hottest star or making the most money does not mean anything," she said. "I'm here to tell you I was making so much money -- I was omnipresent -- and I was the unhappiest teenager probably in the world."
The singer also opened up about one of the most difficult incidents in her life -- the 2006 car crash that killed 38-year-old Awatef Aboudihaj.
"I would hear what people would say, and still to this day they knew that's a button," she explained. "They know that they can call me a murderer or call me someone that killed someone ... A murderer is someone who premeditates it. I didn't wake up that day to be involved in a fatal car crash. I didn't plan for that. And if I could take it back, I would."
The accident happened at 10:30 a.m. on Dec. 30, when Brandy's Land Rover struck a 2005 Toyota, which in turn stuck another car. The Toyota then slid sideways and hit the center divider and as the car finally stopped it was hit by an Acura. The driver of the Toyota, Awatef Aboudihaj, was taken to hospital in critical condition, where she died the next day.
While there wasn't enough evidence to convict Brandy of misdemeanor vehicular manslaughter, she did settle with Aboudihaj's two children, who received a total of $600,000, in 2009 and later settled with the victim's husband, for an undisclosed amount.
On her "Behind the Music" special, Brandy opened up about the aftermath of the tragedy, telling VH1, " I just wanted people to know that this wasn't news. It's not something that should be talked about like it's gossip. You don't like me? Fine. But don't use this situation to try to hurt me, because the guilt of being involved is enough. It's something that I'll never truly, truly get over. Ever," she explained.
More celebrities who battled eating disorders:
Katie Couric discussed <a href="http://www.nypost.com/p/pagesix/couric_admits_bulimia_battle_EpU1k3fLULVMYxC0WK306H">her own history with bulimia</a> on an episode of her new daytime talk show "Katie" while interviewing Demi Lovato, the <em>New York Post</em> reported. "I <a href="http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20632657,00.html">wrestled with bulimia</a> all through college and for two years after that," Couric said while interviewing an expert in eating disorders, according to People.com.
Gaga first spoke of her experiences with bulimia in February 2012 in an interview with Maria Shriver at a Los Angeles conference, saying "I used to throw up all the time in high school. So I’m not that confident. I wanted to be a skinny little ballerina but I was a voluptuous little Italian girl," the <em>New York Post</em> reported at the time. After a number of media outlets scrutinized her weight during a <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/09/19/lady-gaga-meat-corset_n_1897240.html">2012 European tour</a> she took to her website, <a href="http://littlemonsters.com/">LittleMonsters.com</a>, to reveal she <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/09/25/lady-gaga-weight-singer-bulimic-teenager_n_1913701.html">still struggles with bulimia and anorexia</a>. She announced the launch of an online forum she's calling the "Body Revolution" to help herself and others "triumph over insecurities," she wrote.
In 2005, actress Jessica Alba told <em>Glamour</em>, "A lot of girls have eating disorders, and I did too. I got obsessed with it. When I went from a girl's body to a woman's body with natural fat in places, I freaked out. It makes you feel weird, like you're not ready for that body."
In 2006, singer Katharine McPhee talked to "Good Morning America" about her five-year battle with bulimia that nearly destroyed her vocal chords. At her worst point, McPhee binged and purged as many as seven times a day, she said just a few weeks ago. She said that appearing on "American Idol" saved her life by forcing her to confront her problem.
"Sopranos" star Jamie-Lynn Sigler told "The Early Show" she had exercise bulimia: "I ended up starting at a routine which was, you know, 20 minutes in the morning and cutting back a little on my calories. And it snowballed into six or seven hours a day of exercise," said Sigler.
In 2007, singer Kelly Clarkson told <em>CosmoGirl</em> that she was bulimic in high school. "The lesson I took from that was purely superficial, but that's what I grew up thinking for a long time. It wasn't smart, and I headed straight into an eating disorder and became bulimic for the next six months," she said.
In 2010, former "Full House" star Candace Cameron Bure revealed her battle with bulimia when she released her book titled, "Reshaping It All." She told <em>People</em> that she began binging and purging after "Full House" ended its run in 1995 and she was adjusting to life in Canada with her new husband, Russian-born NHL player Valeri Bure.
In 2005 actress Kate Beckinsale opened up about her anorexic past. The star once weighed only 70 lbs and needed to attend five therapy sessions a week for four years to fight the disease.
In 2005 singer and actress Ashlee Simpson told <em>Cosmopolitan</em> that as a young ballerina she struggled with anorexia. "I was around a lot of girls with eating disorders, and I actually had a minor one myself," says Simpson, who at one point stood 5'2" but only weighed 70 lbs. Simpson said her parents stepped in and made her eat, adding that family support really helped her.
In 2006 after the public watched her shrink before their eyes, actress Lindsay Lohan confessed to <em>Vanity Fair</em> that she was "making herself sick," which many took as a reference to bulimia. She told the magazine that Tina Fed and SNL producer Lorne Michaels staged an intervention telling her she needed to take care of herself.
Actress and former child star Mary Kate Olsen famously went to rehab in 2003 for anorexia, but rarely spoke about it. In 2008 she confessed that the disease nearly killed her. "There have definitely been times in my life when I just turned to people and said, 'I'm done - this is too much for me. This is too over-whelming," she said.