07/26/2012 11:30 am ET | Updated Jul 26, 2012

Kristen Stewart Before Cheating Scandal: 'I Can't Wait For Something Crazy To F**king Happen To Me'

There are plenty of "Twihards" and "Robsten" fans wondering why Kristen Stewart would cheat on Robert Pattinson, and there are plenty of media types wondering how Stewart could be so careless about getting caught.

Despite her legions of adoring "Twilight" fans, Stewart has never been America's sweetheart and is often criticized for not smiling enough, and looking as if wherever she is, it's the last place she wants to be. Stewart is the ever-reluctant movie star, once even comparing the experience of being photographed by the paparazzi to rape -- although she publicly apologized for that too.

With news that Stewart cheated on her boyfriend of four years with her married director, Rupert Sanders, many wonder if the scandal will affect the "Twilight" franchise -- it won't -- and others are wondering how it will affect her career.

A 22-year-old actress who has an affair with a married man with two children isn't exactly sympathetic, and Stewart had her own image problems already. For someone who has been so guarded about her relationship with Pattinson for the past four years, it seems bizarre that she'd be careless enough to get caught photographed in such a public places with Sanders.

Is it possible Stewart wanted to get caught? Was this a way to end her relationship with Pattinson as the last movie in the "Twilight" franchise is released? Or did she want to ensure her career's own demise? For someone who has never been comfortable with fame, a scandal like this is a great way to go down in flames.

In Elle magazine's June issue, Stewart admitted that she was looking for something to shake up her life.

"I feel boring. I feel like, Why is everything so easy for me? I can’t wait for something crazy to f*cking happen to me. Just life. I want someone to f*ck me over! Do you know what I mean?” she told the magazine.

If Stewart was looking to make things more difficult, it seems like her affair with Sanders might have done the trick.

Kristen Stewart & Robert Pattinson


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