Once a convicted murderer in a foreign country, Seattle native Amanda Knox is home and speaking out about her four years in prison. Her new memoir, Waiting to Be Heard, will be released at the end of April, but an interview with People magazine reveals a few early details, including the fact that Knox contemplated suicide in her Italian cell.
Knox returned to the United States more than a year ago, after an Italian court overturned her conviction for the murder of her roommate, British student Meredith Kercher. Knox's interview with People Magazine, due to hit newsstands on April 26, took place over several days at her mother's house.
"When Meredith was murdered and I was arrested, it was so shocking. It was paralyzing. Everything toppled," Knox told People.
The 25-year-old Knox spoke out about the "anguish" she felt during her time in the Italian prison and said the Italian press' portrayal of her as an unfeeling vixen was simply not true.
"[Knox] says that there were all sorts of moments of heartbreak that we did not see, where she was weeping" People Magazine Executive Editor Besty Gleick told NBC's "Today." "Amanda describes her ordeal as one where her privacy we invaded, where the guards were leering, and touching and in her space."
Knox even thought about suicide, contemplating suffocating herself, or cutting herself in the shower, ABC noted during a segment about the People interview. Knox also relates how the media attention wore on her, as she was criticized first for showing not enough emotion, then for showing too much.
The New York Times, which obtained an early copy of Waiting to Be Heard, said the memoir paints a picture of "a naïve, impetuous, somewhat quirky girl who loved soccer and the Beatles and who suddenly found herself caught up in a Hitchcockian nightmare."
Even now, home and studying at the University of Washington, Knox said she is sometimes "overwhelmed by the feeling of helplessness and that desperation and fear to even hope," according to the Associated Press.
While Italy's highest criminal court recently overturned her acquittal, adding yet another twist to the saga, Knox has no plans to return to Italy, the AP reports.