Poor Paris Jackson. She's allegedly surrounded by chaos and upheaval at every turn in her family and now she may be questioning whether her adored father really was a pedophile. No wonder she appears to be deeply depressed, say experts.
Paris Jackson may have been left a fortune by her father, the King of Pop, Michael Jackson. But his $600 million estate has done nothing but bring personal heartbreak and emotional turmoil to the sensitive 15-year-old.d
Paris was surely devastated when her beloved father Michael died of an unintended overdose of anesthesia, when he was just 50.
He was the only parent she had ever known, since her biological mother Debbie Rowe, gave up all her parental rights to Paris and her older brother, Prince Michael, after they were born.
"Ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine," the then-11-year-old tearfully told the world at his funeral. "And I just want to say I love him so much."
Now HollywoodLife.com has learned exclusively that Paris has been terribly upset by the recent allegations made in legal documents filed by choreographer, Wade Robson, claiming that her dear father had sexually abused him for years when he was a child and teen.
Paris Is Confused About Who Her Father Was -- Experts
It's "really thrown her in a tailspin," a source told HollywoodLife.
Of course it would! It would be upsetting enough if she was absolutely positive that the allegations were false, but what if Wade's claims are making her wonder about who her father really was, points out celebrity therapist Dr. Gilda Carle, the 30-second Therapist for Today.
"She adored her father; he was her role model. But if she is now facing doubts about her father's ethics and morals, it could also make her doubt everything about who she is and what her value is in the world," explains Dr. Gilda.
Plus, Paris has been in the middle of major Jackson family fighting over her father's estate.
Last year, on July 22, 2012, she seems to have sounded the alarm on Twitter that her grandmother and legal guardian Katherine Jackson, was missing and was allegedly kidnapped by several of her own children who were allegedly trying to have her sign over access to Michael's fortune.
Then her aunt Janet Jackson allegedly slapped Paris, called her a brat and tried to take away her cell phone on July 23, 2o12.
Paris Feels Alone & Unloved
No wonder Paris could become depressed enough to allegedly cut her arm with a meat cleaver, take a large amount of Motrin, leave a suicide note, and call a suicide hotline, according to TMZ.
She must have felt so alone and unloved, with so many family members seemingly far more concerned with her father's money, than with his daughter's well-being.
It's not surprising that she would have reconnected recently with her birth mother Debbie, possibly in a desperate search for some unconditional love.
"Seeing her closest family fighting over her money, would make her question her own value," explains Dr. Gilda. "Every child wants to know that they are loved and all the money in the world can't make up for that. Paris needs stability and love from a stable source who she can count on at all times."
Clearly, Paris wasn't getting that in the past few years since her father passed away.
Paris' Depressing Twitter Feed
In fact, she was very vocal on Twitter for months expressing depressed, dark thoughts.
If only someone in her family had been paying attention to her Twitter feed, they could have easily seen how troubled she was.
Poignantly her last tweet, which she may have tweeted as she was allegedly attempting suicide, was a verse from the infamous Beatles song: "Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away, now it looks as though they're here to stay."
She may have also been coping with a failed relationship. "Love is dumb and so are you," she tweeted May 29. "People suck," she tweeted the day before and that same day, May 28, she tellingly tweeted: "Don't kiss someone one day if you plan on seeing someone else the next day."
Paris Jackson's Role Models: Other Tortured Artists?
Her Twitter page wallpaper was probably not coincidentally Vincent Van Gogh's "Starry Night." Van Gogh was known for his struggles with depression -- did Paris identify?
She certainly seemed to identify closely with Marilyn Manson, who infamously covered the M*A*S*H TV show theme song, "Suicide is Painless," and with suicide victim Kurt Cobain,another of her heroes.
Was she seeking comfort from her own dark feelings that could have been depression, by identifying with other artists who also suffered from depression?
Hopefully now that Paris allegedly took such a drastic step to scream out to her family and the world that she desperately needs help -- she will get it.
The Jackson Family Needs To Support Paris
Let's all hope that her grandmother, her biological mother and that at least some of her uncles and aunts can leave their money squabbling behind and shower Paris with the unconditional love and support that she needs. Plus, hopefully she will receive first rate professional and ongoing therapy with an excellent counselor who has had experience helping teenage girls.
Her family must not "get angry, lay blame, or panic," instructs Dr. Jeff Gardere, associate professor at Touro College in Osteopathic Medicine. "Be as supportive as possible!"
"She has to learn to love herself too; learn to give herself unconditional love," says Dr. Gilda. "Not everyone comes from a family that can give it, so she has to give it to herself."
That's right. Paris may sadly never be able to change the essential nature of the dysfunctional Jackson family, so even if she does get support and love from some family members -- we're sure her two brothers treasure her -- she will also have to learn that she is as lovable, precious and valuable, as her father believed.
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