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Standing Up for My Father

Posted: 06/17/11 03:17 PM ET

My father was a man of reason. Like many post-WWII Naval officers, he majored in engineering and then went on to Harvard Business School. He took over the family business as expected -- manufacturing flush valves for toilets. Our family motto was, "It may seem like shit to you, but it's our bread and butter." But he was also a wildly romantic Irishman. I learned that when I was nine and found the diary he had written when he was 16. I read about how hurt he was that his sister Joan's girlfriends ignored him, his weekly reviews of the triple feature matinees that he went to every Saturday in Brooklyn and his first experience with death when a classmate died right in front of him on the track field. It really shook him. I think he was an altar boy at the funeral. Jack Delany was a typical Connecticut Cheever man of the 60's. He struggled with the conformity of suburban family life.

Even though he drove to the factory in Brooklyn every day, his dream was to be an architect. He loved to dance and taught me to Lindy as I perched on top of his feet. When the hullabaloo came out we learned it together from a book. He played "Red River Valley" on the guitar when he came home from work but not until he had his scotch. He was the first in the plumbing business to wear a Van Dyke (helped hide the Irish chin) and he loved the movies. He introduced me to French films. He was mad for Arletty in Les Enfants du Paradis. And I was mad for my dad. I memorized every crew list from his book The Great Films: Fifty Golden Years of Motion Pictures by Bosley Crowther -- hence my dubious expertise at Celebrity Jeopardy I think the last film we saw together was Steve Martin's The Jerk which made him laugh like a teenager. It would have pleased him to no end that I made a movie with Steve Martin 13 years later. I am an actor because of him.

In August 1980 I was in rehearsals in Edmonton Alberta for A Life, an Irish play by Hugh Leonard. It was a pre- Broadway tryout. My sister left a message on my service that I needed to call Dad. He very calmly told me that the pain that had been misdiagnosed for months turned out to be pancreatic cancer. It was inoperable and he had three months to live. I wanted to go to Virginia to be with him. He said no, he and Pat, his new wife of a year could manage and I needed to rehearse. He wanted to see me make my Broadway debut in December.

The rational side of my father researched every treatment available at that time. He decided against chemo for quality of life alone. It was the same year that Steve McQueen was in his fight against cancer. Being the movie buff, my father considered going to Mexico for the coffee enemas but ended up at the Kushi Institute in Boston. He was praying that a macrobiotic diet could cure him. Now you have to understand, my father was not a granola type. Maybe a Negroni or a Harvey Wallbanger type but... and yes, it was the tail end of the 70's, and he had a new younger wife, but to see my Dad eat daikon and seaweed was pretty laughable if it wasn't so tragic.

However, for whatever reason, he had very little pain and it gave him an extra six months. He had time to make peace with himself and his world. For a man who had lived with a lot of inward rage, my father died with grace and tenderness. And he did see my Broadway debut. I was 24 and he was 56. After he died, I thought "OK. That's what happens when you grow up. Your parents divorce, you graduate from college and your father dies. Shit happens. Life goes on." But in 2008, when I was standing proudly onstage for the groundbreaking Stand Up 2 Cancer special and I saw Patrick Swayze come out and speak with such beauty and strength about his battle with pancreatic cancer, I thought, "He's the same age as my father was. How is it possible that 28 years later, this is still going on? How is it possible that 75% of people diagnosed with pancreatic cancer are still dead within a year?"

And a year later, Patrick was gone.

And now, this week, Laura Ziskin, one of the founders of Stand Up 2 Cancer and my friend, is gone. When she called me up three years ago and asked me to participate in the program by having a mammogram on live TV, I did not hesitate. Because she told me she was going to cure cancer, and I still believe she will. Thanks to her and SU2C, 18 million dollars has gone to pancreatic cancer research. Launch a star in memory of someone you love at www.su2c.org. I love you Daddy, but this one's for Laura.

 
 
 
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10:08 PM on 06/19/2011
Dana,

I share your frustrations with this deadly disease. Pancreatic and Brain neoplasms are two disease where the medical community cant offer survival odds that are high at all. The pancreas is very deep in the coelom and not easily accessed by surgeons hands.

As American citizens, we are fortunate to have access to the American medical community where the survival rates of these tougher to treat cancers have outcomes that exceed twice the rest of the industrialized and advanced world. We are also on an exponential cusp of using technologic innovation in improving the detection, surveillance and treatment of these known fatal diseases. I really hope that America is allowed to continue its unparalleled paths of effective therapeutics that have seen breast and lung cancer survival more than double in this country from approximately 30-40% to know 70% in the last 25 years.

There is hope and nobody should forget that.
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I can chew bubblegum and think at the same time...
09:30 PM on 06/19/2011
My father died last summer of pancreatic cancer. I was very fortunate to spend everyday with him for the last months of his life. It is heartbreaking to see how progressive pancreatic cancer takes hold of someone and doesn't let go. To all those who have lost, including you Dana, my heart goes out to everyone.
guajiro
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08:10 PM on 06/19/2011
"He was mad for Arletty in Les Enfants du Paradis. And I was mad for my dad. "
Thanks for a great father's day gift Ms. Delany. Her mother and I broke up when my stepdaughter was just 10, going on 11, but when I saw my stepdaughter's facebook answer to which memory she misses the most (her stepdad) it gave me great comfort. A daughter's love can mean so much even to us guys out there. Thank you sport.
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07:37 PM on 06/19/2011
this makes one wonder where all the donated money goes. out of the many years of financial support from private citizens and non-profits, resulting in billions of dollars, researchers/scientists/doctors still don't have a fool-proof method of detecting this disease, nor have they remotely come close to finding a cure. it makes me think twice about donations, although i do so anyway, but i would like to have more transparency in the process of giving.
09:37 PM on 06/20/2011
Cancer does not come out of the blue; it is caused. Until the cause is identified and addressed, any 'cure' or 'treatment' is futile. The donations go mainly to research that focuses on 'treatments' independent of causes.

There have been publications in very prestigious medical journals the last few years showing that following a few simple lifestyle changes, most of the major degenerative diseases can be eliminated. But who wants to give up their greasy hamburgers, their high salt bacon, their high fructose soft drinks, their cell phones, their pesticides, etc, etc? Better to declare War on Cancer, and keep those donations flowing. Endless war; that's what we do best!!
05:42 PM on 06/19/2011
Remember the actress, Fran Dresher from the sitcom, "The Nanny"? Reading these comments about the misdiagnosis or not even finding the cancers brought her to mind. She went from doctor to doctor had test after test for years before she received the correct diagnosis. It turned out she had a type of uterine cancer and by the time is was discovered she could never have children, though she did have her life. All this expensive testing, the obscenely expensive cost of specialists and healthcare and you read over and over about cases just like this. We are 'duped' into thinking we have the best healthcare in the world here in the US. I'm only too grateful I have good health and don't need doctors except for a yearly check-up.
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12:59 PM on 06/19/2011
Ms. Delaney, I've always been a fan, but now I know why. Your story is from the heart and is beautiful, yet I'm sorry for the pain you've experienced. Delays in diagnosing, delays in finding the right treatment (if options are even available) and the insurance industry trying to play Dr. are all things to be concerned about. My mom just passed away 3 months ago after having been diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer 11 years ago. For two years before that, she suffered from excruciating pain yet her doctors (and there were MANY) failed to diagnose her condition until she paid for a diagnostic test (out of her pocket) because insurance wouldn't cover it. Many of the comments you made about your dad and his character remind me so much of my mom. It's very difficult to accept that there might have been a different outcome had everyone, from doctors to insurance companies) done the right thing from the start. As you've said, life goes on and we can have wonderful, prominent people like you bring this to the forefront and hopefully open some eyes and ears. Thank you for writing what must have been a very difficult article to write. You never know when the right person will say the right thing and catch the right ear and a difference can be made. I'm hoping it's you!
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I wish you happiness!
12:53 PM on 06/19/2011
I lost my mother to pancreatic cancer and died several years ago on Christmas Eve. My mom was like everyone else--misdiagnosed with every other ailment until it was too late. Even at 80 years of age she was quite the fighter, defying the odds and living for a year and a half even though her initial prognosis was that she wouldn't live 3 months.

I don't know which is worse, to see a loved one die quickly or to see your once vibrant loved one shrivel to 70 pounds, lose all their faculties, and slowly, painfully slip away.

And as Ms Delaney stated, after all these years there is virtually no cure--or even definitive test-- for this disease.
professor
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12:16 PM on 06/19/2011
Statistically, the new treatments affect very few people. And even the industry itself admits it has no interest in cures because there is no profit in it. The industry itself admits it. Freely. Brazenly. The gall.

And much cancer comes from nuclear radiation that has been poured into the environment since the 1940s. Nuclear Radiation is not "lifestyle-driven."

And blaming things on people instead of corporations is easy but wrong.
09:45 PM on 06/20/2011
Most cancers are lifestyle driven. The premier medical literature is steadfast on this point. This does not mean environment does not play a role. Chemicals in the environment, widespread use of pesticides, air pollution, increasing large use of non-ionizing radiation devices such as cell phones and WiFi all play a role. But even here, some of these can be avoided.

I don't think your statement about ionizing radiation is supportable. Certainly it is dangerous in large doses; there is debate about whether small doses are dangerous or hormetic (beneficial). But how many people have high exposures today to ionizing radiation, compared to those exposed to the many forms of non-ionizing radiation?

Ideology is wonderful; it allows you to substitute fantasy for facts.
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12:07 PM on 06/19/2011
Very touching article, Dana. Thanks for the heartfelt sentiment.
My dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in the late 1990's, and within 6 months he passed on.died. I wrote this as a tribute to him. Happy Father's Day to all the dads physically alive with us or living in our hearts.

Dad, I Miss You

You were a funny guy,
But you could make me cry,
Though when I needed a friend,
You were there for me.

You worked hard for us,
I knew I could trust,
You would always
Love and care for me.

Dad I miss you,
Wonder where you are tonight.
Dad I miss you,
Need you here to make it right.

In my early years,
You would dry my tears,
Comfort me at night,
When I was afraid.

Then I went off to school,
Sometimes I played the fool,
When I came home to you,
I knew I had it made.

Chorus

Chorus

Bridge
Do you think of me
How it used to be
And the good times that we shared?
I’ll always think of you,
The things we used to do,
And how much you cared!

I thought I knew it all,
Though at times I crawled,
And now I realize how hard,
It must have been for you.

Now that I’ve grown,
And have kids of my own,
I just want a chance to say
Dad thanks; I love you.

Chorus to End

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Aglets: their purpose is sinister.
10:48 AM on 06/19/2011
My experiences with this cancer are limited. Most of our patients died as predicted, within 3-6 months. Once we tried to do a Whipple's to extend a lady's life, which tragically ended on Christmas morning, in the ICU.
But there was just one lady that was found to have metastatic cancer, who lived for over 10 years in fairly good health, after declining any intervention past her initial laparotomy. You never know what your cards are.

Last Father's Day, my daughter gave me Randy Pauch's book. That's worth a read, if you have this or any other serious illness.
http://www.thelastlecture.com/aboutbk.htm
10:41 AM on 06/19/2011
Dana, I lost my mom to the same disease. Diagnosis to Death was a very short 3 months. No symptoms and no pain until the last stages of this aggressive disease. The loss was sudden and very unexpected. The fears that remain for surviving family members are the genetic predispositions and knowing that this silent killer can strike at any time in life regardless of life choices. Live each day to it's fullest for there are no guarantees of any tomorrows. Hopefully a preventive cure will be discovered soon. It is certainly an objective worth hope.Thank you for your awareness and contributions.
06:38 AM on 06/19/2011
pumpkin seed oil on a regular basis, in little doses and you will never have to deal with this kind of cancer.
Everything is available by mother nature. Green tea is also a great prophylactic chasing free radicals.
Seaweed has the same effect. I had some prostate problems and cured it with pumpkin seed oil. In mediteranian countries this is known for centuries
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08:56 AM on 06/19/2011
You actually believe that? You think somehow pumpkin seed oil taken on a regular basis will prevent this kind of cancer? How could anybody actually research that? I guess if you don't get that kind of cancer it means it works not that you weren't going to get that kind of cancer anyway, right?
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Aglets: their purpose is sinister.
10:51 AM on 06/19/2011
Well, it's likely to be at least as successful as the medical treatment, at the moment.
02:07 AM on 06/19/2011
If they DID actually cure any cancer, the researchers, pharmaceutical companies,
imaging machines manufacturers and oncologists, etc. would be OUT OF BUSINESS.

CANCER = PROFITS.
02:52 AM on 06/19/2011
You are totally correct. I am fighting cancer for a second time and it is all about supporting Big Pharma and the big business of the cancer industry
One doctor, Burzynski, founded gene centered therapy: instead of announcing a step in the right direction the FDA and the American Cancer Society SUED him. For over a decade - until they lost.
Now they have stolen his work and are using it in trials as IT WORKS.
And there are no horrible side effects like with chemo.

Our government is allowing people to die.
For money.
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01:03 PM on 06/19/2011
i just watched that film. i'd like to say unbelievable but i know it isn't.
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06:12 AM on 06/19/2011
Your conspiracy theories have NO place in an article of this character. Shame.
09:41 PM on 06/18/2011
Forgiving someone for what they have done to you does not mean you have to be around them. Some people are toxic and it's just not a good thing to be around them. I found this out in 2 instances in my life. First time I was working for a woman who I believe had more than one person living in her personal house. She was mean, hateful and did everything to undermine my work and impune my character...she was jealous of the quality of work I did because I won awards for programs I wrote. Second time was my stepson, whom I loved like my own. He turned out to be a bad seed and was in and out of jail and introducing my bio son to some of his druggie ways. That's when I decided that I could only love him from a distance because he was toxic for me and for my son....point is, just because you forgive somebody, it doesn't mean you have to socialize with them. You aren't forgiving them for them, but for you so that your heart can become lightened again. I hope this helps some of you who are confusing forgiveness with re-establishing a close bond again.....two different things completely.
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Sick of the fracked up righties.
12:14 PM on 06/19/2011
Wow. It is interesting you find your stepson to be responsible for the consequences of his actions, but you don't hold your son responsible for his decisions.
04:17 AM on 06/20/2011
To: OldJazzyGirl - You made a huge assumption that I don't hold my son responsible. My stepson was 42 yrs.old (a man) and had been in prison twice. My son was a 19 yr.old high school grad and a good kid with excellent grades. He was a Natl.Merit Scholar, had a structured home and school life. This was his 1st time being on his own. He was in college, recd.several scholarships, on dean's list. My stepson introduced him to his unsavory friends. Yes I surely do hold my son responsible for his actions, but were it not for my stepson's influence this wouldn't have happened. My stepson's chosen lifestyle determined my stance. He is toxic and borders on evil. He leaves destruction in his path wherever he goes. He has been convicted of several felonies and gotten away with crimes that would put him in prison for life if the truth be known. I do not participate in a codependent relationship with my son. I give him my support and a meal when he is hungry, nothing else; no money, no room and board, no nothing. Yes I do blame my stepson for a huge part in my son's addiction. He was a grown man who knowingly had influence over him and chose to introduce him to bad people and activities. A kid just out of high school lacks maturity to always make the right decisions. Don't judge me til you walk in my shoes.
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08:31 PM on 06/19/2011
"You aren't forgiving them for them, but for you so that your heart can become lightened again. "
It is heartening to find good advice no matter where it comes from. Thanks and happy father's day to you.
04:31 AM on 06/20/2011
Guajiro--Thank you for you beautiful comment! I learned this from "A Course in Miracles". It absolutely changed my life and taught me how to forgive others and to love myself. It didn't come easy because I was stubborn and didn't want to change my way of thinking. I'm so glad I didn't give up!
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08:37 PM on 06/18/2011
"" 75% of people diagnosed with the disease are dead within a year. How is this possible?""

There is no money in curing a disease. The last disease that medical science cured was Polio.


Treatment, treatment, treatment, treatment - Profit, profit, Profit, profit,
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11:53 PM on 06/18/2011
You got it! Why doesn't anybody even notice this? I actually heard a TV show where they ADMITTED they are not interested in cures because they are interested in profits. They have the gall to admit it to our faces. Ba.
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09:10 AM on 06/19/2011
Well considering that you libs wanted all the research money to go towards AIDS research why should you be surprised that this would happen. Also, what is the percentage of individuals who get this type of cancer versus other cancers? It may be small so other cancers will get more money if that is the case.
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01:21 PM on 06/19/2011
Your comment about the "libs" wanting money to go to AIDS research is a bigoted statement at best. In a discussion about terminal illnesses, there should be no room for such comments. Do you have any idea how many other medical breakthroughs have happened because of AIDS research? I say medical research, no matter what the disease, needs more support because you never know what you're going to find during the course of the research. For example, the woman who was researching diabetes and made a groundbreaking discovery regarding Alzheimer's Disease. Just goes to show.......