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07/25/2011 11:20 am ET | Updated Sep 18, 2011

That's Dr. Cranky Pants To You

Damn. Damn it. These doctors are pissing me off -- royally. Who do they think they are?

Granted, I'm in a particularly strange situation at the moment. I just returned from major surgery in a foreign country. I need follow-up from a doctor in the U.S. who didn't do the surgery. It's a special surgery so it needs special follow-up.

I have a bleed in my eye and have to go to a surgery center for laser work. They need a form from my primary care doctor in order to pass me in for the surgery. And I already rearranged a whole day of my own patients because the eye surgeon only does surgery on two days of each month!

None of these circumstances did I create, or did I? Well, alright, maybe I did.

But, holy jeepers! The scheduling backing-and-forthing is sending me into the anger stratosphere!

There have been more emails than I can count between me and the assistant in the New York doctor's office to arrange a follow-up for the surgery. The doc is acting like he's doing me a favor! Excuse me? I'd be like any other patient! Except he only sees people one day a week and I can't get to New York City on that day of the week without it being extremely stressful for me.

We're talking three follow-up appointments at most in the next year. He can't make an exception and see me another day of the week? I guess he can't.

I had to write to the surgeon this morning and say that it can't be worked out with his follow-up guy and can we try someone else?

My primary care doc also sees patients only one day a week. To be fair, she's the medical director of a health care center so I get why that's so. In fact, it was an honor that she kept me as a patient! (Truly.)

Anyway, I just got off the phone with her assistant who has now called me three times to change an appointment to have a form filled out! Which, if she wanted to, she could fill out without seeing me. I totally get the integrity thing. She has to set her own ethics boundaries -- but three changes! I finally had to say, enough. I have clients of my own that I'm unwilling to change.

The thing that amazes me here is that I'm self-employed so my schedule is extremely flexible. What does a person do who works a 40-hour week? And, I'm self-employed, so when I work, I get paid and when I don't work, I don't get paid. It's not rocket science, but it is a fact.

When I woke up at 4 a.m. on the dot this morning, I woke up angry and I knew it. I even knew what I was angry about and it has absolutely nothing to do with these doctors. In fact, they're all on my side.

So here's the real scoop: I'm angry that I had a rotten disease all these years and that it stole so much time, energy, money and life from me, and I just have to get over it already.

And besides, I'm a doctor just like you are, so that's Dr. Cranky Pants to you.

Whew, I feel better. Sometimes a girl just needs a small rant.

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