Antoinette (Toni) Roberson Varner was given the name Gangaji by her teacher H.W.L. Poonja in 1990. Before that meeting she had spent decades searching for lasting happiness. She had immersed herself in activism, psychological self expression and finally, various spiritual practices. Her meeting with her teacher, called Papaji by his students, allowed her to deeply inquire into herself. Through this inquiry, she discovered silent awake consciousness, and she realized that as herself, as everyone. Papaji asked that she invite all who are interested to inquire and discover for themselves, and for the last nineteen years she has traveled the globe offering this invitation, and supporting others' deep inquiry. She is the author of THE DIAMOND IN YOUR POCKET and YOU ARE THAT. She lives with her husband Eli Jaxon-Bear in Oregon and offers retreats in the U.S., Copenhagen, Canada, Europe, England and Australia. Visit her website for more information about events or to look at an online catalog of books and videos.

Blog Entries by Gangaji

The Opportunity Of Change

2 Comments | Posted October 21, 2009 | 09:28 AM (EST)


The most inevitable material fact of our universe is the one we have the stormiest relationship with. Either we fight it as it is appearing, or we mourn for it as it passes us by, but we are hardly ever at peace with change.

At every instant of our...

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Prizing Peace

20 Comments | Posted October 14, 2009 | 09:22 AM (EST)


In my view, the emanation of peace by any one person is a boon to us all. When that person is the leader of the most powerful and sometimes the most dangerous nation in the world, that boon is magnified exponentially.

I happen to like President Obama and I...

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Why Emotional Pain Doesn't Have to Lead to Suffering

13 Comments | Posted August 31, 2009 | 02:37 PM (EST)


Physical feelings of pain are familiar signals to us all. In general we note the discomfort and naturally make attempts to correct the cause. This is our innate intelligence at work. And when the pain is simple, and simple corrections are made, all is well. The sensation of pain is...

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Why Pleasure Doesn't Lead To Lasting Fulfillment

30 Comments | Posted August 25, 2009 | 09:04 AM (EST)


Since the love of pleasure is natural to us all, why doesn't it lead to lasting fulfillment? The easy, and correct, answer is because pleasure doesn't last. When we are experiencing something pleasurable, we don't imagine that it will end, or even that there was ever a time without it....

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What Does Your Life Teach?

12 Comments | Posted August 18, 2009 | 09:20 AM (EST)


Every creature has a story. A beginning, an arc of a life, and then an ending. Not just animals, of course. Trees, flowers, butterflies, spiders, rocks, planets, and solar systems all have their story.
All come from life, are infused and animated by life to become a particular life...

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Winning the Lottery

20 Comments | Posted August 11, 2009 | 01:00 PM (EST)


When the California lottery began in 1985, it conjured up visions of instant richness for many, myself being one of the many. Naively I would purchase a ticket at the local 7/11 and then wait for the good news. While waiting the few days before winners were announced, I would...

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When The Heart Breaks Open

20 Comments | Posted August 4, 2009 | 12:14 PM (EST)


As human animals we naturally avoid sources of pain. All animals do, as whatever causes pain could threaten survival itself. In that very practical sense, sensing pain is a signal to move away from something. Fire burns, burns hurt, fire can kill you.

Emotional pain hurts deeply too, with many...

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An Invitation: Suspend All Diagnosing

10 Comments | Posted July 28, 2009 | 11:00 AM (EST)


You are cordially invited and sincerely encouraged to declare one day a diagnosis free day. (It's not as simple as it may sound.) During the period of twenty-four hours, diagnosis of any kind is denied admission into your evaluation of yourself and others.

This day is by no means an...

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What We Can Learn By Not Speaking The Language

9 Comments | Posted July 21, 2009 | 05:41 AM (EST)


People who have the industry and intelligence to learn to speak and understand languages other than their own are to be admired and emulated. Their lives and those whose languages they speak are enriched for it.

I am not one of those people, and I'm not proud of that fact,...

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What Is Your Life About?

14 Comments | Posted July 13, 2009 | 06:43 AM (EST)


We are all afraid of death. Yet when we meet this fear and clearly face the reality of our personal end, we have a supreme opportunity to discover what our lives are being lived for. When we don't flinch from the reality of death, then the inevitability of our end...

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The Call to Freedom

9 Comments | Posted July 7, 2009 | 07:59 AM (EST)


I recently visited the lively, beautiful city of Berlin. It was my first visit, and I brought with the visit what the word "Berlin" has meant to me. In my mind Berlin is a city that has lived at the center of extremes.

In the 1930's it was a...

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Where Is Sacred Space?

13 Comments | Posted June 30, 2009 | 02:55 PM (EST)


In 1994 I was invited to speak to a group of men incarcerated at Englewood Federal Prison, Colorado.
They were a group of men who had been part of a meditation and discussion group, and their leader had attended some of the meetings I was holding in nearby Boulder.

...
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What Is In Your Name?

11 Comments | Posted June 16, 2009 | 01:54 PM (EST)


At a recent retreat with a group of people interested in living freely, unencumbered by past definitions of themselves, a revealing exercise was discovered. When a person said their own name and then said what that name meant to them, self-definitions from childhood were exposed. Usually, if not always, these...

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Where Does Torture Start? Where Does It End?

6 Comments | Posted June 8, 2009 | 04:13 PM (EST)


When I watched the YouTube clip of President Obama with Chancellor Merkel and Holocaust survivor Eli Weisel placing individual roses at the memorial at Buchenwald death camp, I was deeply moved. I felt both sadness at the horrors we as a species are capable of, and encouraged by what we...

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What Are You Spreading?

11 Comments | Posted June 2, 2009 | 12:41 PM (EST)


In the midst of the recent Swine flu panic, most of us have been more careful than usual with our physical hygiene. We wash our hands more faithfully, cover our sneezes more correctly, avoid touching surfaces in public places and maybe worry more. We also have been humbled by how...

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Mississippi Shining: Good News for All

15 Comments | Posted May 25, 2009 | 01:58 PM (EST)


The election of James A. Young as the democratic candidate for mayor of Philadelphia, Mississippi, is the living proof of the Taoist adage, "Furthering through Perseverance."

In 1964, in Philadelphia, three civil rights workers who were in Mississippi to register black voters were murdered. In the same time period, Mr....

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Open Mind

37 Comments | Posted May 21, 2009 | 06:37 PM (EST)


With all the activities our lives are dedicated to, it is easy and usual to overlook the fulfillment present in this actual moment. In service to our goal-oriented minds, we usually neglect to stop our internal chatter for even just a few seconds. When I use the word "stop" here,...

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