Lately, I've been tired. And my body has been heavy, sore, and stiff. I haven't had the energy to write, and it's taken all the adrenaline (and sometimes) caffeine I can find to muster up the energy to teach my fitness classes. And the tired train seems never-ending, because I'm also not able to sleep, even though I'm so exhausted. I put off writing my book more and more... I put off expanding my classes to new locations more and more... because I'm just too tired.
The past two months have been a major transition for me. After over a year and a half of being self-employed, I started a full-time job as a writer for a non-profit spiritual organization. And I also got out of a romantic relationship. Both of these things happened pretty much the same day. So I've been adjusting to life without my ex (sad) while at the same time I've been adjusting to life having to sit inside at a desk all day (my body obviously dislikes).
So how about being easy on myself? How about allowing the transition to happen? How about figuring out how to make the job work so my body doesn't ache and I'm not too drained from sitting down all day under fluorescent lights to then go do what I'm passionate about? How about allowing the healing and grieving process of losing a relationship? Nope. Instead, I've been pushing myself to just go go go, and in the pushing, what I have really done is pushed myself to a complete halt. What I'm doing apparently isn't working!
Sometimes, we just need to stop and take stock of a situation, acknowledging exactly where we are, not trying to ignore it or push past it. Sometimes we just need to allow everything we are doing to sink in. I have been trying to just rush through it all. Trying to rush through the relationship grieving process, rush through the emotions so I don't have to feel them (too painful) and trying to just jump right into the new job situation without acknowledging that changes are happening. I am being the victim, allowing the situation to happen to me. So of course I'm tired.
When we don't take control of our situations, we become tired, overwhelmed, stressed, or sick. When we allow ourselves to feel "done to" instead of the "do-er of", we can't accomplish anything. When we make excuses for why we aren't doing the things we are passionate about, we are not living our truth. And when we are disconnected from our truth and passion, of course we are tired or sick.
So next time you start feeling too tired or overwhelmed to do something you are truly passionate about, stop and ask yourself why. And take a step to stop making excuses... What can you do to change your situation? Even if the change is just to stop and acknowledge your situation for exactly what it is.