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How My Brain Tumor Woke Me Up To Life

Posted: 08/28/11 11:27 AM ET

Diagnosed with a brain tumor in 1998 when I was 24 years old, I knew nothing about cancer. Since then, my health and healing journey has taken me to places far and wide.

Within one month I had undergone awake brain surgery at the National Institutes of Health (NIH). I felt my left temporal lobe brain tumor -- the center of speech, memory and sound -- required awake brain surgery to help protect my cognitive functions. Twelve hours of surgery later -- complete with awake speech and memory testing -- neurosurgeons removed the brain tumor along with some surrounding tissue. In the ICU, my brain re-routed, my cells repaired, my bones mended, my jaw slowly unlocked, my heart trembled, my body acclimated to new terrain, my soul sung tunes and my spirit held me.

"You need to track brain tumor scientific studies for your tumor type and care for yourself," said one of my neurosurgeons. I had no concept for any of it. Crisis serves as a powerful teacher and a catalyst for change.

Several opinions from pathologists diagnosed a lower grade stage of a brain tumor. For cancer patients, multiple opinions are necessary. No conventional cancer treatments were recommended. Instead, I had frequent MRI scans at Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center (MSKCC).

Recovering from my surgery and learning about anti-cancer modalities, I built a team of providers and developed self-care strategies. I developed my health and healing map over many years. Some approaches and therapies supporting me involve acupuncture, herbs, holistic medical care, craniosacral treatments, exercise, dietary changes, homeopathy, Shamanic work, energy healing, dental work, psychotherapy and support groups.

Over time, my personal journey and professional cancer work begged the question, "What do people with cancer really need for improved quality of life and survival?" The answer for me has been integrative cancer care. Integrating more than the cancer diagnosis, integrative cancer care addresses the whole person of body, mind and spirit, including social and environmental health. I've found studies that show that integrative cancer care can possibly reduce cancer risk, and improve cancer survival and quality of life.

My integrative cancer care plan continues to evolve. In some ways, I began to feel stronger. Some aspects of my health and healing moved forward while other aspects moved backward. Dealing with fatigue and other ailments, I was finally told news about my tumor's recurrence in February 2004. Not only was I informed about my brain tumor recurrence, I learned that the tumor actually regrew in 2000. Despite my frequent MRI scans, my doctor never informed me. It was a double whammy. Getting copies of medical records, questioning hospitals claiming to offer the best of cancer care, learning about advocacy and self-care -- these were only some of the lessons I learned.

Moving toward thinking and creating anew, I added more integrative therapies and made more changes to my life. During the last five years, I completed four major cancer protocols, including three at cancer clinics in Europe and one in New York City. Once again, I became stronger in some ways, but other health problems surfaced simultaneously.

I've constantly tried to figure out where I have been and need to go. Now, more than 13 years after my brain tumor diagnosis, surgery, recurrence, more than 30 MRI scans, many cancer therapies, healing modalities, introspection, study and resources, my life contains new knowledge and personal transformation. I embrace adversity as opportunity, seeing healing as a never-ending road and life as a spiritual journey.

But change has occurred once again. A new chapter in my brain tumor journey began three weeks ago. My most recent MRI scan the end of July 2011 showed that my brain tumor requires me to have a second brain surgery. I've worked extremely hard trying to heal holistically and trying to avoid another surgery. Yet to stay alive, that is what I must do. On September 1, 2011, I'll have awake brain surgery at the University of California San Francisco (UCSF) with Mitchel Berger, M.D.

While I live with uncertainty, vulnerability and sometimes pain, my knowledge and strength carries me forward. Eager and open to transforming my challenges into opportunities, I further evolve into my deeper self.

Through my own personal cancer experience and professional cancer work, I've identified some essential tips for cancer patients:

1. Self-Care: Make yourself a priority each moment, hour, day and week. Support your own whole person. Definitely sleep, relax, eat healthy, reduce stress, use mind-body support, lean on your spiritual and social connections, live in a clean and green environment and address any other needs you may have.

2. Support Team: Love yourself and receive support. Create a group of family members and friends to help you through your cancer journey. Specific types of support are wide and varied. You can even use Internet-based programs to organize help. Find what works for you. Be open.

3. Advocacy: Self-advocate, and receive help from loved ones and other professionals to navigate your cancer diagnosis, side effects, treatments and journey. Move step by step. Conduct research, ask quality questions, seek multiple opinions, maintain a willingness to change directions when necessary, and use other resources to improve quality of life and cancer survival.

4. Choose Quality Providers And Build A Team: Choose an oncologist with expertise in your specific cancer and access to excellent treatment facilities. I believe that quality cancer care must include other treatments for the cancer diagnosis and your whole person. Identify a group of integrative providers tending to many aspects of your health and healing. The full spectrum of comprehensive integrative cancer care will not come from one professional -- instead it will occur through the help of a team.

5. Joy, Love, Passions And Purpose: Focus your attention on what you enjoy and the way that love brings light to your life. Express your passions and purpose in order to strengthen your innate healing capacity. I believe that passions flow through your heart. Purpose feeds from your core through embodiment of heart, soul and spirit.

With these essential tips, many other cancer resources, my personal cancer knowledge and professional cancer work, my commitment is to help people with cancer. You can learn more about integrative cancer care resources for the whole person through my non-profit organization called EmbodiWorks at www.embodiworks.org.

 
Diagnosed with a brain tumor in 1998 when I was 24 years old, I knew nothing about cancer. Since then, my health and healing journey has taken me to places far and wide. Within one month I had under...
Diagnosed with a brain tumor in 1998 when I was 24 years old, I knew nothing about cancer. Since then, my health and healing journey has taken me to places far and wide. Within one month I had under...
 
 
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IreneL
author, journalist, blogger, speaker, journalist
03:28 PM on 09/06/2011
Wishing you the best! You are an inspiration and fount of information for others.
11:20 PM on 09/06/2011
Thank you so much!! I'm really grateful for your support and please feel free to tell others about http://www.embodiworks.org/.
03:08 PM on 08/30/2011
Prayers and healing power be with you.
10:29 PM on 08/30/2011
Gratitude to you.
09:49 AM on 08/30/2011
Integrative cancer care plan is a great way to address the needs of cancer patients. We at Ihadcancer.com have created a social network to address the support needs of anyone affected with cancer and believe it is a great step to healing! #fightcancer
08:45 PM on 08/30/2011
Thanks I Had Cancer! I look forward to learning more about your organization too.
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07:58 PM on 08/29/2011
Wow! Wow! Wow! Thank you for sharing your experience although I am sorry you have to go through this. Advocacy and self-care cannot be stressed enough although it's hard to be your own advocate when you don't feel well - or are unconscious. I am glad you have a support network.

I have a new 45 year old client with stage IV colon cancer I just met for the first time last week. This person is amazing! This person, like you, sees cancer as waking them up to life. My client also changed their mind from hating cancer to appreciating cancer (this person actually said they'd have to "love their cancer if they want to get well"). I still can't believe our conversation last week! I feel more awake just listening to my client and reading your article. Every day is a blessing! I look forward to checking out your website.

I wish you all the best...ii
10:09 PM on 08/29/2011
Thank you so much. I appreciate your wishes and definitely check out EmbodiWorks with integrative cancer care resources at http://www.embodiworks.org/.
04:59 PM on 08/29/2011
My young cousin (26) is starting this journey, as a 4cm tumor was just discovered on Sat. Surgery in Buffalo, NY to remove, is tomorrow. We thought it was food poisoning due to vomiting, but a day later became double vision. The MRI concluded the brain tumor. Your 13 year battle does give me hope. Will keep you in our prayers too. Thank you for such an informative article.
06:01 PM on 08/29/2011
Blessings to your young cousin and surgery tomorrow. I'm touched that you consider my article informative. You can also learn more about cancer resources at http://www.embodiworks.org/. When I was diagnosed with a brain tumor in 1998, I initially didn't feel that I'd live very long. With each month, year, personal transformation, and learning over time, I've come to connect with breath of hope, endless possibility, spirit, and much more. Thanks for your prayers.
04:01 PM on 08/30/2011
Update! :) Surgery this am was very successful! A rare central neurocytoma was removed. It's a rare tumor that affects young adults (avg age 28- he's 26). Long term prognosis is excellent!! He's in ICU for next 2 days... but is awake & alert! We'll be looking at your website later this week. Thanks again for your blessings! All the best to you!
01:00 PM on 08/29/2011
Old drugs are coming up trumps as potential treatments for cancers. This program from bbc radio4, last broadcast only yesterday(!) refers directly to one being used to treat brain tumors - and that costs only pennies
http://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/b013xsm1
details how clomipramine, an old anti-depressent, has a remarkable effect in preventing re-growth (extrapolated to others of the 'tricyclic' anti-depressent family), talking with specialists. researchers as well as patients. The age of the drug (60s vintage) seems to make it hard to get money for proper research, tho there is one cancer charity itching to fund a study, and has the money available. PLEASE give it a listen if this is affecting you or a loved one.
03:22 PM on 08/29/2011
Thanks for sharing this info. I'll explore it.
12:58 PM on 08/29/2011
Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Best to you on Thursday.
03:20 PM on 08/29/2011
Thank you very much ~
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crom14
09:42 AM on 08/29/2011
My heart will be with you on September 1st. as I awoke this morning feeling angst over a health issue, I found your story as if I was meant to read it today. You write in a way that was captivating, I think you should write a book! Bless you in the days ahead.
You are a strong person. I will pray for you.
12:29 PM on 08/29/2011
Thanks and hope you continue to feel well each day! With gratitude for your sweet note to me and prayers.
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Bebe36
Grateful for every day.
08:36 AM on 08/29/2011
My youngest sister lived for 22 months after diagnosis of a GBM IV.

She worked, traveled and lived alone until the last seven weeks.

She was one of the most courageous people I have ever known, and I miss her so.
08:55 AM on 08/29/2011
Your amazing sister feels courageously inspiring. Take good care of yourself too.
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Bebe36
Grateful for every day.
10:10 AM on 08/29/2011
Thank you for your sentiments.

Best of luck on your journey forward. You are an inspiration for us all.
01:24 PM on 08/29/2011
Jeannine,
please listen to the prog i link upthread - some investigations referenced in it that in the lab, it is seen attacking only cancer cells, not healthy brain cells, very high %ages for preventing regrowth, etc. Just as thalidomide has been found to cut off blood supply from some tumors and is being re-investigated as an HIV drug now, this is real. I care, my cousin's partner died from a brain tumor shortly berore their second baby was born. A near neighbor is struggling with it now.
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crom14
09:46 AM on 08/29/2011
I lost my only sister twenty four years ago. It is a lonely pain that never leaves. I miss her everyday. I try every day to live a happy life without her, to honor her and celebrate her.
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Bebe36
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10:10 AM on 08/29/2011
As do I...
Matt51
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05:09 AM on 08/29/2011
My father died from a gioblastoma. I have come across this article:
http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1662484,00.html
The Warburg effect - I would greatly simplify as, cancer has to be fueled by carbs. Healthy cells can alternatively be fueled by fats, but cancer cannot.
Half the "hopeless" cancer cases in the trials in Germany listed in the Time article, including brain cancer patients, survived long term on a ketogenic (very low carb diet). John Hopkins uses the ketogenic diet for epileptic patients, so it is safe.
07:02 AM on 08/29/2011
Sorry to hear about your father who died of a glioblastoma (GBM). EmbodiWorks will be adding information about a ketogenic diet to our Diet and Cancer section at http://www.embodiworks.org/cancertreatments/bodymindspirit/dietandcancer/. The nutrition in foods affects cancer both directly and indirectly. Some foods kill cancer cells and others promote cancer cell growth. Learning differences between what to eat and what not to eat is essential.
02:54 AM on 08/29/2011
Thank you for sharing Jeannine.
Sending Love and seeing you well, always...
Karl
03:12 AM on 08/29/2011
Gratitude to you, Karl.
11:25 PM on 08/28/2011
Jeannine: As you know, I have followed your journey for several years now. I have admired how you have taken an active role in your own treatment and recovery since Day #1. I trust that your September 1 surgery will be successful and that you will make a full recovery! With love and admiration.

Julia Schopick
www.HonestMedicine.com
02:50 AM on 08/29/2011
Thank you very much, Julia! I'm deeply touched by your note and amazing work too! I feel strong and confident while welcoming the encouragement and inspiration.

Blessings and Love to you always,
Jeannine
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Mrshowell2001
Do or not do- there is no try
03:45 PM on 08/28/2011
In 2009 I had a benign brain tumor called an Acoustic Neuroma. ANs grow on your vestibular(balance) , auditory and facial nerves. Microsurgery almost always leaves some deficits physically, but at least it's not cancer. After surgery, radiation was recommended to kill off the last of the tumor. My sould rebelled against radiation, and I rejected it. After three follow up MRI's the tumor is totally gone, with no radiation treatments.
In June I was dianosed with stage 0 breast cancer, had a lumpectomy, and again refused follow up radiation, with the support of my surgeon.
The bottom line is 170K for the brain surgery, 9K out of pocket on top of that; the lumpectomy will be about 24K with another 4K out of pocket. I was lucky to have insurance, but will be paying my out of pocket costs for years to come.
A single payer system would be much more comprehensive, and in the end, much less expensive.
And fewer people would die for lack of care.

Good luck on your upcoming surgery.
10:19 PM on 08/28/2011
Wishing you optimal health and healing through your cancer journey. Thanks for your care about my upcoming surgery too.
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dbrockskk
02:58 PM on 08/28/2011
Not one word about cost or health insurance
10:17 PM on 08/28/2011
For some information about cancer financial assistance, explore resources at http://www.embodiworks.org/cancertreatments/resources/cancerfinancialassistance/.
01:23 PM on 08/28/2011
Couldn't agree more. I lived nine years with a tumor on my pancreas before a doctor found it and since then have learned to embrace life (and actually feel healthier than ever) with metastases in my liver and chest. I use a plant-based diet, tons of exercise, and a kick ass attitude to keep my cancer on time out. Best of luck with your upcoming surgery. http://tracykrulik.com
10:15 PM on 08/28/2011
Wonderful that you are doing so well, Tracy. I agree that a healthy diet, exercise, and attitude helps a lot! Thanks for your wishes with my surgery too.