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Kelly Bergin

Entries by Kelly Bergin

Escaping From Reality

(2) Comments | Posted July 30, 2013 | 2:29 PM

The doors of the gate are slowly swinging to a close as I look on, ten feet away. Sweat drips from my temple and a lump forms in my throat. I dig my feet into the soles of my sandals and run toward C12.

"Please," I beg. "I'm on that...

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Cancer Turned Me Into a Hypochondriac

(4) Comments | Posted June 11, 2013 | 6:32 PM

Last week I noticed a black speck on my arm. It was irregularly shaped and it was new. Brand new. Like, I-must-have-gotten-it-while-I-stepped-outside-for-a-second new.

One of my good friends died from melanoma at 30 in November, and I've had four excisions of abnormal tissue in my time. My fair skin, light...

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Being Two

(0) Comments | Posted April 23, 2013 | 6:34 PM

Yesterday, I made my mom come to take me to the oral surgeon at NYU. The medicine I take for lupus, cancer and diabetes have rotted my teeth beyond belief, and I have extractions and root canals and root removals scheduled for me. My X-ray is full of gaps and...

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Chronic Pain and Pep Talks

(4) Comments | Posted April 9, 2013 | 5:27 PM

I've been in a funk for over six months now, due to a lupus flare and complications from thyroid cancer.

Last night, I summoned my energy to take the train into New York City from my parents' house, where I am currently recovering. I had a great night but was...

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The Allure of Pain Meds

(2) Comments | Posted January 10, 2013 | 11:06 AM

Percocet, Vicodin, OxyContin. For some people, this sounds like a night of fun, or the perks of having your wisdom teeth removed. Although I've experienced worse ailments than tooth removal, these drugs never appealed to me. Even in my darkest moments, I resisted their allure. It was mostly in an...

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Illness and Relationships: Diving In

(9) Comments | Posted December 11, 2012 | 3:42 PM

Last week, I went to the doctor to have my heart tested. The tech doing my echo threw a bunch of words at me: arrhythmia, tachycardia, uncontrolled blood pressure. I sent them via text message to my new boyfriend before I got in the car and drove away.

Right away,...

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On Living Your Life Twice (With Help)

(20) Comments | Posted November 21, 2012 | 1:01 PM

I've been sick since I was 10 months old. I don't know anything else. I was born with a chronic immune disorder and then diagnosed with systemic lupus at 15. When I was diagnosed with cancer in college, the trauma of the illness just added another layer to something I...

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