"The trouble with the rat race is that even if you win, you're still a rat."
- Lily Tomlin
You've been there before: a long day, lots to do, worrying about the next thing, trying to get through the day. What if I get fired tomorrow? What if I can't make my rent payment? If I could only get this one thing done, THEN I'll be happy. How can I get to that magical moment where everything is ok?
All these thoughts race through your head as you're lying down, TRYING to sleep. There's no end in sight. You've tried the sheep, the pills and getting that one thing you think will make you happy, yet there you are, lying in your bed, awake.
I used to have to take two Ambien to go to bed, plus Xanax for my anxiety all day long. Worry was my middle name. I worried because I worked in a fast-paced entertainment management company in Beverly Hills and the pace was frenetic. Everything was non-stop all day long.
My sleeplessness continued for a long time after working there, until one day I had enough. I didn't want to rely on drugs to put me to sleep and wake up every morning fearful of what the day might bring. That was my "A-ha" moment! I didn't want to be fearful.
Fear was the root of most of my sleeplessness. My primary fears were: fear of tomorrow, the unknown and fear of spontaneous death. Somehow, I thought that in the unknown's of tomorrow something bad would happen I would up and die. In my mind, everything was doomed to go wrong. There was no trust, no understanding of the beautiful mystery that is Life, and there was no self-love.
Over time, I began to acquire the tools needed to live a better life. I didn't want a life of just survival; I wanted to thrive! But to get to this place where I wanted more I had to first hit rock bottom. There was a time in my life when I had worked and worked and worked and nothing worked. I never thought I would have success again, and I was getting the worst sleep of my life. Fear had brought me to my knees!
This was the magical moment I'd been waiting for, the moment where I knew there was more to life than the rat-race.
Part of my New Year's resolution is to know and embody that I am actually worthy of Heart's desire. Twenty-ten can be a different year for you. Going from thoughts of fear to thoughts of Trust will completely transform your life.
If you are letting your life be run by fearful thoughts, by a belief that you are lacking and that hard work is your only salvation, my guess is that you are probably not getting enough sleep, either. Let one of your goals for 2010 be to rid your mind of fearful thoughts and begin to replace then with thoughts of Trust, Abundance and Love.
Hard work is only part of the equation for success and abundance in your life. You will never fully realize your highest potential or even get a good night's sleep if you are operating on fear most of the time. It's vastly important that you leave enough room for the Universe to do its part as a co-manager in your success.
This means letting go, loosening your hold and stepping into trust.
How would your life be different if you were thinking and living primarily from a place of trust? Less reactive? Less judgmental? Sleeping more? In order for your best life to birth itself you have to be healthy and in alignment.
So, how does one get into alignment and begin to trust more? It's not easy, but it is simple. Do the things you want to do. Do things that feel GOOD.
Ask yourself, if I truly trusted the Universe, and myself, what would I do? What choices would you make? If you are seeing a different life in your mind's eye, that's great! As Obi-Wan says, "You've taken your first step into a larger world."
Begin to take your time back. Don't over-schedule your life. Make time for you and your needs. Make time for your creativity, your health, your chill time, contemplation/meditation, spiritual practice and most importantly make time for fun! Please feel free to connect with nature, go for walks and be around people who support you. Let go of relationships that don't serve your happiness and know you are worthy of thriving!
I know it's hard financially for many of us right now, but what you eat is so important. Try not to skimp on good food. If you really want to make a change for the better, it has to start with you and if you don't have a well nourished body it will be hard to change.
A truly great night's sleep is evidence of a life in balance. If you are having a hard time sleeping, chances are you've bought into a fearful thought that isn't real and you are letting it run your life. Know that fear is not real and that you do have the power to change your life and start enjoying it again.
After about four years of practice and many life changing events, I'm happy to report that I can fall asleep on command. Trust in life and slowly but surely life will show you it is worthy of your trust. A good night's sleep (and so much more) is counting on it!