We live in a perfect storm that invites addiction in and then nourishes it. We must now realize that addiction is among the most serious and costly diseases we face. And in order to change, we are actually going to have to change the way we understand it, the way we relate to those who have it and the ways we treat it.
The majority of what I write has to do with the blessings that sobriety has brought to me, and most of the time that is truly how I feel about being sober. However, I wouldn't be an alcoholic if I didn't occasionally wish I could just throw caution to the wind and drink like everyone around me does.
As anyone who gets sober after having spent most of his or her life drinking can attest, the original process is terrifying. I didn't admit to myself I was scared because I told myself I wasn't scared, let alone terrified, of anything. Without realizing it, I'd internalized the idea that I was not allowed to feel fear so instead it came up as other things: either that social anxiety or anger and sadness.