I'm not one of those moms desperately wishing her kid slept through the night. I'm one of those moms who counts the number of times one of her kids has slept through the night after he stopped nursing. Because it is that small of a number.
It's been four months. Four months of sleeping in a sleeping bag on the living room floor. My wife right next to me, on the cushions off the sofa. Our son has our bedroom. All of it. He's 13 months old.
Laying here tonight I wonder why motherhood no longer seems to have the same luster it did when I first gave birth, why I feel like a shadow tending to someone else's footsteps. Where did the allure go? I think it's must be with all of the socks that have gone missing in the dryer.
I would like to take this opportunity to apologize to all of you bleary-eyed mamas out there. I was once that bright-eyed and bushy-tailed mother with the one well-rested child rolling my eyes at you and your sleep training folly.
Please know that after 15 months of her not sleeping, I have researched sleep tricks on the Internet, talked to the doctor, talked to other moms and tried it all. Yes, EVEN THAT (insert random weird Internet sleep fad here).
One of the hardest parts of parenthood for me is the lack of sleep. I am like a zombie in the middle of the night. If I'm being even more honest, more often than not, the girls cry for my husband when they wake up, because they know Mama is just going to march them back to bed.
The Web is not a doctor. The Internet can deliver information with amazing speed and volume, but it can't listen to your child's heartbeat or look into your baby's eyes while engaging in a conversation about your newborn's sleep habits.
It's not often that we parents get told to do what we want to do. Usually we're told to do something because it's better for our child -- and whether we have the ability to do that thing, let alone the time or energy, doesn't enter into it. So enjoy this wonderful bit of parenting slack.
Moms and Dads, here's some important news: there are new guidelines you should know about that can help your baby sleep more safely. The American Academy of Pediatrics has issued new recommendations for sleep safety and protection against SIDS.
I hovered outside my toddler son's bedroom, listening to his distressed wails through the door, my hands twisted into a knot. Seven minutes since I'd last comforted him, and, according to a pediatric sleep expert, I needed to wait three more.