It made me excited, not anxious. I didn't even really think to list it on my college applications while I spent a whole of time and thought questioning how "impressive" my other activities looked. And in the midst of this yearlong freak-out, I found something to call my own.
Graduation is right around the corner and this is certainly not the time to mess up all the hard work I have put into school my whole life. You can almost taste it; just keep pushing on. The finish line is right ahead!
January: A new year plus the last round of college applications and finals. As everyone was celebrating a new year, I was comparing last year to the recent events that led to doors being closed and others being opened. It all started with my applications.
My cheeks were red and steaming as I tore through the common application, trying to decipher the many elements of admission to five different universities, skimming and skidding through essay questions and stressing over requesting recommendation letters.
I am supposed to follow the norm and not think about going to college, let alone a prestigious one. I'm glad it's not what it looks like and I will not let these stereotypes bring me down. I'm college bound, so society is just going to have to deal with it.
Right now, I'm running on four hours of sleep each day and I'm feeling physically exhausted, but mentally pumped! Ladies and gentlemen, will I make it to the end of the week with my grades, sleep and social life undisturbed?
It's not that I'm completely hopeless and expect the worst, it's just that the college process involves so many external factors and, as the control freak that I am, that's not something I handle very well.