Sometimes the very things that initially drew us to a partnership are the very things that end up driving us away. If you are willing to peel away the layers to understand what it is you are actually seeking and what's in your way of getting it, odds are you can find what you are looking for right where you are.
Look at the fishes in the sea, timbers/woods in the jungles and fertile land all over the world. There is no shortage of things in the Creation but the only shortage is of people that have the guts to dream of bigger and better things. Where did the concept of goodness of poverty come from? Not from God. It must have been from the Devil/Satan or the folks that find holiness in poverty.
Learning how to speak your desires is an incredible life skill to master. And learning to speak your desires does not always mean getting them fulfilled. In fact, we may have many desires that we don't really want to have granted, and learning to speak our desires and not having them fulfilled is all a part of this practice.
The other night I had an anxiety attack. I am prone to panic. I know I am a meditation teacher but it is what it is. Maybe it is the menopause that triggers the attacks. I don't know. All I know is that I haven't been able to tame the scared 5-year-old that still lives inside me. Not entirely, at least.