There's so much uncertainty surrounding what the next few years might look like, but you're going to be okay. Through all the stress and worries, you're going to be okay. I promise.
We aren't born hating our bodies. Somewhere along the way we learn that we need to be thinner, smaller, skinnier to be better. And the good news is that with a little digging, we can unlearn all of it, as well.
Felix reminded me that the most mundane of things could put a skip in my step. Reflecting on graduate school and where I am in life reminded me that each day can be lived fully knowing that I can create some of my own happiness.
In my entire 40 years, I've never once been high or intoxicated. Still, an AA program would serve me well. Approval Anonymous. A support group that could help eliminate my need to be accepted by other people and direct me toward the sense of self that I am just beginning to claim after decades of living inauthentically.
You should be more afraid to offend a woman by asking if she is pregnant than by not asking. Ultimately, it's none of your business unless she wants it to be your business.
For the first time, it seemed I had come up against how the rest of the world viewed my changing body, and it was not exactly what I had expected. In that moment I became aware of the gazes of men as I passed by. I was 9 years old.
On my end, I've written that my meditation practice has been my "saving grace." Okay, if I am going to be honest... it is stronger than that. It has saved my life. With my daughter, I probably would have lingered in a consistent state of depression. I've had bouts, but with my practice I could always get out of it.
There's a huge emphasis placed on how we cope with stress, anxiety and mental health challenges in our lives. Everyone has a different way of determining the difference between release and reinforcement.
And thankfully, the ultrasound was fine. There was nothing to worry about after all. It's been an incredible lesson and the start of an amazing journey. I had a feeling it might resonate for you too. Does it?
Not one of the many specialists that I visited wanted to recognize that I was clearly struggling with an eating disorder. Eventually, when all else failed, I was diagnosed with "runners' hematuria" -- blood in the urine -- from running too many miles. "It happens to marathoners all the time," one doctor said dismissively. "It makes perfect sense."
For someone who has issues with food, the span between Halloween and Christmas is awesome and brutal for obvious reasons, but for an all-or-nothing type of gal like me, Halloween candy is the worst. And the best. And the worst.
I have healed. My jaw works, I can chew, and the pain is gone. Food has, once again, become a source of happiness, entertainment, and togetherness in my life. But I will never forget those early post-op weeks.
I'd say that around 70% of the hair-related pins I see in my feed are short, spiky, pixie-style cuts with comments like "Someday I'll work up the nerve" and "Love this look, but just can't pull it off." Short hair, wishful thinking.
When you don't betray yourself by running away, by eating your sorrows, and by drowning your pain in food, you allow space for healing. Your heart begins to mend, your soul begins to shine, and your smile returns.
Our minds are filled with the thoughts, beliefs and values of all the people who influence our lives. Having a strong sense of self comes from tuning out the voices of everyone else and listening to your own information, intuition, needs and desires.
Beauty is not fixed. We make the rules, and we can change them. Today, I'm posting my belly on the Internet for everyone to see.