I often write about the power of shame in the context of recovery. But shame is a human problem, and long-time Christians are in no ways immune. I was a Christian--and a slave to shame--for more than a decade before I became a slave to alcohol.
My friend, you did not show up to be a pastor or a lawyer, journalist, or missionary, or a mechanic or server at Waffle House. You are here instead to awaken out of all illusions. The illusions cause the suffering.
Promise yourself to focus on the good that is present in you and all around you. By doing so, you will eventually get back to yourself, back to being authentic and back to living a blissful, abundant and loving life.
The development of the false self grounded in the unrelenting messages from the many forms of media enables children to meet the demands of the "manufactured" world of popular culture. Yet, the cost is high.