Maybe life was easier before Ella, but it wasn't full, or anywhere near complete. Going back could never satisfy me as it had before, because once you experience the deep end, shallow waters aren't the same.
here I am, a proud Millennial, a Generation Y baby who was raised to think the world owed me something, admitting I am not perfect. I am not even close to it. I had dreams and aspirations of being the perfect mother, but I have failed.
I found that I enjoy motherhood as much as I always hoped/wanted to, and that many parts of it came naturally. Other parts were more of a struggle, but every moment of difficulty and strife was more than worth it and more than made up for in love and snuggles and happiness.