Regardless of the road blocks that a fearful older generation present, change will come. As the younger generation of women and men take leadership roles in sports, they will carry with them the values of inclusion and respect that drive their activism.
You will understand those confusing feelings you are having about "who you love" or fall in love with. It is your nature to love, and it is just who you are that you love a man. It is OK. You will survive your suicide attempt, and something glorious will happen.
In 2003, I was a redshirt freshman at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln that decided to come out in high school. But I wasn't sure if I could handle being the first openly gay Division I college football player.
We have built this moment up for so long. The gay world and the sports world have played such vital roles in my life and I've been one of the many gay fans who have spent years craving a moment where our passions collide.