Right now, I'm going to let my tears fall in the shower, instead of in front of my child. I'm going to turn off the television, close the Facebook tab, toss the paper in the recycling under bottles and cans. I'm going to let my daughter play and laugh, and not know all of the terrible things that I have to know.
I know it's frustrating right now, but I promise you it won't always be that way. You will learn to claim disability as an important part of who you are. You will become a proud disabled woman, and a fierce advocate who wants to dedicate your life to changing the world for the better instead of running from it.
For anyone who has ever loved and formed a bond with a pet, you understand the way they can make your heart swell with joy, or the comfort they give by sitting in your lap and letting you know they are your number one fan. Although they are no longer a part of my life, I have learned many things from two of my childhood pets.