I stopped playing the work-life-money game I had been raised with and decided that since this was my one life, I was not going to spend it working or living for the future. And over the course of the last seven years, I have been able to create a life that truly feels like I'm on vacation every day.
It's going to take a little while, but eventually, your heart is going to start beating again. And when it does, it's going to be a stronger, healthier, bigger version of itself. You're going to realize why love hasn't worked in the past -- and you'll be open to a love that matches this new heart of yours.
Make a decision that your health and well-being are your single most important asset, and begin living your life to protect it. Take a personal stand that this is not the way you want to live, and this is not the behavior you want to role model for your children. Here are a few suggestions to get you started.