"I have this 'good mother' voice in my head sometimes. The other day, Julia was napping and I realized I'd forgotten to turn the baby monitor on. I checked on her and she was still sleeping, but I thought, a good mother wouldn't forget to turn the baby monitor on."
I know you didn't expect most of this. I know you never realized how this incredible amount of love and stress and self-doubt could all stem from even one small child in your life. I know you wish you could do it better.
I know you didn't expect most of this. I know you didn't anticipate loving somebody so intensely, or loathing your post-baby body so much, or being so tired, or being the mom you've turned out to be.