I began to realize that this wasn't spirituality. Spirituality isn't obligation and empty actions; it's being fully alive, doing things that light you up, enjoying and loving life. Trying to force myself to sit through another New Moon manifestation ceremony while I really just wanted to be out having fun wasn't all that helpful.
Being busy has nothing to do with being productive. It actually shields our dodging of important yet very uncomfortable actions. It restricts professional performance and limits mental capacity by compromising decision-making processes and letting our impulses loose. Although being busy can make us feel more alive, the state itself is not sustainable in the long term.
When you decide NOT to go after your dreams outside of motherhood, it absolutely comes at a cost to you. You'll miss out on the opportunity to do something just for you. You may not get the chance to feel intellectually and creatively challenged and accomplished beyond your role as a mom. You won't get to do the things outside of motherhood that light you up, the things that make you feel the very most like YOU.