All of your senses are challenged when you're grieving. The world gets paler. Mom's death would have been hard whenever it happened, but the stress and loss seemed amplified by the festivities around me. In a month drenched with music, lights, and reminders to be cheery, it can feel so much harder to just sit with sad feelings and grieve.
I will live each day to the fullest knowing that tomorrow is promised to no one. I will take no one for granted. I will honor my son by continuing family traditions and remember the love we shared will transcend through the holidays and comfort me the rest of my life. I love you mom, I love you Matt. These last words said are etched forever in my heart.
It is possible to find yourself again and rekindle your joy when life takes a detour. Above all, it's a chance to shed unwanted layers, let go of what no longer serves you, and highlight the things that truly make you happy. Life ending up in a different place than you ever imagined can have a happy ending!