Pregnancy after loss can be an extremely complicated path. It combines hope with fear. It is natural that women who find themselves pregnant after a loss often struggle to make sense of a universe of nuanced emotion. For those who surround the woman, it is sometimes difficult to know how one can be most helpful.
I survived infertility (quite well in fact) but as with many life crises my healing wasn't complete. I still feel sadness at times when I hear stories of couples getting pregnant as planned, and enjoying traditional family life. And sometimes I wonder what my life would have been like, had I not experienced infertility.
To Sam and Nia, I send my heartfelt condolences. I thank you for sharing your journey with the world and for allowing the world to grieve with you. While we join them in mourning the loss of the child they'd only just started to celebrate, I think there are many things we can take away from their very public experience.
I wrapped my legs around him and sighed. For the first time in months I could finally sleep. I felt more than a little guilty. After five years of marriage, I had never spent the night wrapped up with anyone other than my husband. But here I was, caught up in a strange and exciting love affair. Each time I was about five months pregnant. Yes, I succumbed to the temptations of an affair with my full body pregnancy pillow