In some respects my future is a blank slate, which is horrifying or at least unsettling despite the envy of some for the liberating possibilities, even if they aren't entirely limitless. It occurred to me recently that my personal endeavors outside of raising my wonderful 18-month-old boy are not as vacant as I've managed to convince myself all this time, and it has been, and will likely continue to evolve as all dynamic things do.
In a strange way, an infant can enhance your meditation practice. As meditators we train ourselves to watch our minds at all times, and now we have something external to be aware of 24 hours a day. Something we have to protect, just like we strive to protect our minds from negative thoughts and emotions.