If you're in the same boat as me, please know that you don't have to suffer alone. Your mental health concerns are nothing to be ashamed of. Go to your GP. Tell them how you are feeling. If you walk away feeling embarrassed or ashamed or unsupported, it's time to find a new GP, because I promise, you don't need to feel alone in your suffering anymore.
Many people complain that abandonment imprisons them behind a wall of their own making. They get caught up in patterns of constant re-abandonment (abandoholism) or avoid relationships altogether to avoid the pain (abandophobism). Others are in a relationship but feel chronic heartache and uncertainty. They're shrouded in shame for feeling so needy.
In my years of experience, as a psychologist specializing in the psychodynamics of money management and investing, I've come to realize that there are certain important relationships which we must understand before we can achieve a consistent degree of success in the world of investing and in the marketplace.