Healing is possible. Healing is real. It may not happen tomorrow, but if you continue to learn new tools, experiment with the resources that help, be compassionate with yourself and believe in yourself, you'll get there soon enough.
Now, close to 20 years since those early, painful days when I first discovered I was not alone, my life has completely changed. That person I was all those years ago is not who I am now. But I still remain an addict. It is who and what I am.