Your letter is not about your ex being a d*ck. If he were a d*ck, you would have stopped thinking about him by now. But you are thinking about him. Almost a year later, and you're reaching out to me, too. You said you shouldn't be thinking about him though. Has someone told you that? Often our friends do.
I am an extremely busy woman. I have a full-time job, a blog that is another full-time job, I'm an author, mentor and so much more. With all of these other things I also have to find balance between my career, personal life and spiritual growth. Sometimes one has the tendency to overshadow the other.
It's a sad reality that people who haven't been loved adequately in childhood are often loved inadequately in adulthood. Children tune into the messages they receive from their parents. If parents are distracted, overwhelmed by life, emotionally or financially burdened, they can't give their children the kind of attentive love and care necessary to thrive.
We all have those mornings that we wake up and the first thing we think is: "I just CAN'T do it today." Whether it's work or parenting or just life in general. It's that defeated, deflated, and exhausted feeling in your gut that grabs you and convinces you that you aren't good enough to get the job done.
The "honeymoon," that sweetest time during the relationship, has fizzled. You didn't see it coming. Now you feel as if nature tricked you and you struggle to hold on to it. But it has become a lost cause and nothing you do works. You're now left with having to deal with disappointment and heartache.