These days, I don't feel that Chris is around and helping me as much anymore because he knows that I've got this now. I took care of him when he needed it, and he was here for me when I needed it. I have learned that connecting with him means tapping into my own heart energy and loving myself. It is one in the same.
If you have not been able to reach the goals you had in mind or been stuck in an exhausting cycle of improvement/relapse, maybe it is time to give the weapon of self-discipline a rest. Does that mean you will have to give up your goals? Not necessarily. But it does mean that you need to look at these goals in the bigger context of your life and dig deeper at your own motivations.