These days, I don't feel that Chris is around and helping me as much anymore because he knows that I've got this now. I took care of him when he needed it, and he was here for me when I needed it. I have learned that connecting with him means tapping into my own heart energy and loving myself. It is one in the same.
I will live each day to the fullest knowing that tomorrow is promised to no one. I will take no one for granted. I will honor my son by continuing family traditions and remember the love we shared will transcend through the holidays and comfort me the rest of my life. I love you mom, I love you Matt. These last words said are etched forever in my heart.