With the skyline in front of me, I remembered: I live here. And I can't just exist here. I need to thrive here. So I'm going to keep messing up until I find the right solution and I'm going to keep creating disasters until someone calls it talent.
I was lucky enough to find a relationship with God at an early age. My family owned a church, so the majority of my adolescence was spent being hauled back and forth to every church service you can imagine.
I'm officially in my 40s. I'm surrounded by teenagers. And I'm tired of fetuses on the internet telling me what to do. Some woman-child who thinks she's all grown up is going to tell me what I can't wear anymore because I'm too old? Seriously. F*ck that noise.
Your 20s are your selfish years and it's a decade where you immerse yourself in everything around you and the world out there. Ensure you are selfish with your time, look after yourself, pay attention to your mental health and love the people who are important to you.
Do you know a 25-year-old wandering in their career and life? It's pretty common these days. Nearly half of new graduates are underemployed, working jobs that don't require a bachelor's degree, according to the Federal Reserve Bank of New York.
Instead of wasting time comparing yourself to others, spend it figuring out what's meaningful to you. What makes you tick. What kind of change you want to see in the world. And remember this: synonyms for the word "crisis" include a turning point, a crossroads.
There's one thing I know with such a certainty that if I was to un-know it I would subsequently stop breathing. This is the one thing that pushes exhales from my soul and keeps my heart beating. If I know anything in this world... It's this one crucial thing.
I don't know about you, but I'm feeling like a college senior who thought college would set me on a permanent life path, but instead I am left with more questions, more interests to pursue, and a list of a mere 22 things that I have learned.
In addition to praying for this good Samaritan, Alex and I will be making a donation to the Catholic Archdiocese of Canberra (I have a huge feeling that Father James is from there although I can't be certain) in his name.
The key with exploration is to welcome and embrace it. Don't expect instant answers, don't force yourself into a box created by others, and most importantly don't force yourself into a box you created.
Uncertainty is surging through your veins right now at lightning speed, and while tempting to offer words of warning and advice, all I can really do is stand in silence at your bravery. And stubbornness.
Looking back at my second decade, or my #messytwenties, I see a blur of transitions, transformations, revolutions and lots of tequila shots. In a nutshell, in our 20s, we are mostly wrong -- especially because we think we are so right.
I've been asked by men and women, young and old, acquaintances and strangers and family and friends. In intimate settings and public forums. By medical professionals (with no regard to my health), cabbies and cashiers.