Each time you hear yourself saying or thinking what "should" be happening, flip it around and ask the question, what is happening? Drop your fight with reality, your narrative about what "should" be, and you'll discover that reality, unburdened by your opposition, is a lot different than you think. The surest way to find peace is not to win the war, but to stop the fighting.
Over time I started to see the effects of chasing after something so irregularly unattainable and unsustainable. My moods were erratic with lots of highs and lows, I felt discouraged and adrift a lot of the time, and I was often filled with envy when it seemed like everyone else in the world had figured out the happiness secret except me.