I was raised to be a strong, black woman who could handle her own emotions -- not ask someone to help me sort them out. How dare I need treatment for feeling worthless and for being bullied when I come from a lineage of ancestors who used strength and endurance as a way to survive?
There were many times I was lucky not to have been hurt as I indulged in some serious stupidity, waking up god-knows-where and telling myself, Jill, remember how this feels. Remember just how low and dirty and rotten this feeling is so you don't do it again.
Until recently, doctors didn't even think a woman could get depressed during pregnancy, because they believed antenatal hormones protected against it. The fact is, as many as 70% of women will experience symptoms of depression during pregnancy.