I do want to keep exercise in my day and be the healthiest, highest functioning version of myself that I can be. But when I have an extra hour or two at the end of the day, I don't want to spend it making sure my body looks perfect. I want to do something that will add value to me as person on a deeper level, beneath the surface of rock-hard abs.
Regardless of if and when I lose the weight, these pink tattoos from that year will never go away. Even if I become a ripped, svelte version of myself, the permanent marks of the toughest period of transition in my life will remain a constant reminder of the insecure and desperate-for-fulfillment girl that got me the marks in the first place.
At that moment, I decided to put my ego aside and read the book. I finished it in one sitting. It wasn't always pleasant, mind you. After all, Amy Ahlers was calling me on every lie I ever told myself. But it was necessary. And Ahlers offers challenges, exercises, and affirmations to help you through every lie in the book.