Suddenly the music stops, and I stumble from the dank classroom, shaking and sweating from parts of me that I didn't even know could sweat. Seated on the lounge couch, I marvel that I survived the ordeal. Try again next week, my fellow Zumba classmates urge me. It gets easier with time.
Kajal is the mastermind behind Doonya's Bollywood dance workout curriculum and fitness formula. Kajal is certified by the American Council of Exercise, and has a lifetime's worth of training in South Asian pop and classical dance forms, as well as years of training in hip-hop and jazz.
Nervous, I stood in the back of the room so as to not be noticed making what I anticipated would be a fool of myself. I'd left my contact lenses at home so that I wouldn't be able to see myself in the mirror, but I could still make out the shape of my body in the distance.
By the time the class is over, I had redefined the word spastic, bumped into the woman next to me twice, peed my pants just a little, and realized that while I thought I could dance, I actually could not.
Zumba's slogan is "join the party." One of the best decisions I ever made was joining the party. There is rarely a "maybe later" in life or dance. Moving in the moment is the only way to heal sometimes.
But there is some link, at least for me, between a happy home life and being a slug about everything else. That Josh loves me can't be the reason I love myself. That he thinks I am smart, competent and worthy can't be the reason I believe those things. It has to come from me.
In honor of this legendary town that has been my other half for most of my adult life, I've been collecting a list of all the things I will miss when I'm gone. Even I'm surprised how long it is. I thought I'd share 10 of my favorites.