For most people, school is starting up within the next month, and as much as I am enjoying my summer, I am looking forward to going back to school so I can see all of my friends everyday. However, in the back of my mind, I am scared to death for the new school year to start. I'm starting my freshman year, and I'm really freaking out inside my head!
Last school year when we started getting our high school schedules and everything, it really kicked in that I am growing up and I'm about to be with the "big kids." I worked so hard to be the big dog at the top of the middle school, but now I'm back to square one, being the little fish again.
When I think of high school, the first thought in my head is automatically "Oh my God, what if high school is actually like the Mean Girls movie?" Right now I'm thinking about that huge cat fight that happened when they had to stay after school to get that huge speech, and all the drama that happened consistently throughout the movie. I don't want to be the girl that has to eat her lunch in the bathroom, or the girl who no one wants to sit with at lunch. Most importantly, I do NOT want to be the girl who gets shoved into a locker!
My mom is constantly giving me pep talks about it, giving me advice about how to deal with anything if something happens that's the typical high school problems like rumors and whatnot. Even my friends that are older saying that it's not as bad as some people put it out to be. Not gonna lie... that rests my nerves a good bit! I guess the best thing to do when you're freaking out about that kinda stuff is just try to look forward to it with no fears, trying to fight all your fears, right?
The main things I'm looking forward to are the homecoming dance, prom of course, and just the pride you can take in being a high-schooler. It's all going to start to sink in that I'm growing up, and I've been waiting for this all my life, so I'm super excited for all the opportunities that'll come my way, too. So overall, I can say that I'm pretty frightened of the things that Hollywood puts high school out to be, but on the other hand, I can't wait for all of the high school activities that girls are sooo excited over on Facebook and everything. I'll def have butterflies the first day of my freshman year!