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Posted: August 6, 2009 04:02 PM

My Acid Trip with Squeaky Fromme

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This month, Lynette "Squeaky" Fromme, a member of the Charles Manson family, is scheduled to be released on parole from a federal prison in Texas after serving 34 years behind bars for the attempted assassination of President Gerald Ford in 1975. Squeaky did not participate in the Tate/LaBianca killings, which I began investigating in 1971.

Manson was on Death Row -- before capital punishment was repealed (and later reinstated, but not retroactively) in California -- so I was unable to meet with him. Reporters had to settle for an interview with any prisoner awaiting the gas chamber, and it was unlikely that Charlie would be selected at random for me.

In the course of our correspondence, there was a letter from Manson consisting of a few pages of gibberish about Christ and the Devil, but at one point, right in the middle, he wrote in tiny letters, "Call Squeaky," with her phone number. I called, and we arranged to meet at her apartment in Los Angeles. On an impulse, I brought several tabs of acid with me on the plane.

Squeaky resembled a typical redheaded, freckle-faced waitress who sneaks a few tokes of pot in the lavatory, a regular girl-next-door except perhaps for the unusually challenging nature of her personality, plus the scar of an X that she had gouged and burned into her forehead as a visual reminder of her commitment to Charlie. That same symbol also covered the third eyes of her roommates, Manson family members Sandra Good and Brenda McCann.

"We've crossed ourselves out of this entire system," Squeaky explained.

They all had short hairstyles growing in now, after having completely shaved their heads. They continued to sit on the sidewalk near the Hall of Justice every day, like a coven of faithful nuns bearing witness to Manson's martyrdom.

Sandy Good had seen me perform at The Committee Theater in San Francisco a few years previously. Now she told me that when she first met Charlie and people asked her what he was like, she had compared him to Lenny Bruce and me. It was the weirdest compliment I ever got, but I began to understand Manson's peculiar charisma.

With his sardonic rap, mixed with psychedelic drugs and real-life theater games such as "creepy-crawling" and stealing, he had deprogrammed his family from the values of mainstream society, but reprogrammed them with his own perverted philosophy, a cosmic version of the racism perpetuated by the prison system that had served as his family.

Manson had stepped on Sandy's eyeglasses, thrown away her birth control pills, and inculcated her with racist insensibility. Although she had once been a civil rights activist, she was now asking me to tell John Lennon that he should get rid of Yoko Ono and stay with "his own kind."

"But," I said, "they really love each other."

"If Yoko really loved the Japanese people," Sandy replied, "she would not want to mix their blood."

The four of us ingested those little white tablets containing 300 micrograms of LSD, then took a walk to the office of Laurence Merrick, who had been associated with schlock biker exploitation movies as the prerequisite to directing a sensationalist documentary, Manson.

Squeaky's basic vulnerability emerged as she kept pacing around and telling Merrick that she was afraid of him. He didn't know we were tripping, but he must have sensed the vibes. He may even have gotten a touch of contact high. I engaged him in conversation about movies. We discussed the fascistic implications of The French Connection.

He said, "You're pretty articulate--"

"For a bum," I finished his sentence, and we laughed.

Next we went to the home of some friends of the family, smoked a few joints of soothing grass, and listened to music. They sang along with the lyrics of "The Horse With No Name" -- which I figured was about heroin -- "In the desert you can't remember your name, 'cause there ain't no one there to give you no pain." I was basking in the afterglow of the Moody Blues' "Om" song when Sandy began to speak of "the gray people" -- regular citizens going about their daily business -- that she had been observing from her vantage point on the corner near the Hall of Justice.

"We were just sitting there," she said, "and they were walking along, kind of avoiding us. It's like watching a live movie in front of you. Sometimes I just wanted to kill the gray people, because that was the only way they would be able to experience the total Now."

That was an expression that Manson had borrowed from Scientology. When ranch-hand Shorty Shea was killed, he was first tied up, a few of the girls gave him blowjobs, and when he climaxed, his head was chopped off because he had reached the Now.

Later, Sandy said, "I didn't mean it literally about killing the gray people. I was speaking from another dimension."

She told me that prosecutor Vincent Bugliosi once snarled at her as she kept her vigil outside the courthouse: "We're gonna get you because you sucked Charlie Manson's dick." Bugliosi also accused Squeaky of threatening him during the trial, although reporters who witnessed a confrontation between them on that streetcorner heard him threaten to send her to the gas chamber. The girls just sat there on the sidewalk and laughed. They knew that oral-genital relations did not constitute a capital offense.

When we returned to their apartment, Sandy asked if I wanted to take a hot bath. I felt ambivalent. One of the defense attorneys had told me that he participated in a memorable threesome with Squeaky and Sandy, but I had also been told by a reporter, "It certainly levels the high to worry about getting stabbed while fucking the Manson ladies in the bunkhouse at the Spahn Ranch -- I've found that the only satisfactory position is sitting up, back to the wall, facing the door."

Visions of the classic shower scene in Psycho flashed through my mind, but despite the shrill self-righteousness that infected their True Believer Syndrome, these women had charmed me with their apparent honesty and humor, not to mention their distorted sense of compassion. They sensed my hesitation, and Squeaky, not Sandy, confronted me.

"You're afraid of me," she said, "aren't you?"

"Not really. Should I be?"

Sandy tried to reassure me: "She's beautiful, Paul. Just look into her eyes. Isn't she beautiful?"

Squeaky and I stared silently at each other for a while -- I recalled that Manson had written, "I never picked up anyone who had not already been discarded by society" -- and eventually my eyes began to tear. There were tears in Squeaky's eyes too. She asked me to try on Charlie's vest. It felt like a bizarre honor to participate in this family ceremony. The corduroy vest was a solid inch thick with embroidery -- snakes and dragons and devilish designs including human hair that had been woven into the multi-colored patterns.

Sandy took her bath, but instead of getting into the tub with her -- assuming her invitation had included that -- I sat fully dressed on the toilet and we talked, while I tried not to ogle her pert nipples.

"What's that scar on your back?" I asked.

"It's from a lung operation."

Later, Brenda asked for another tab of acid to send Manson in prison. She ground it into powder which she glued to the stationery with vegetable dye, adding the notation, "Words fly fast," explaining that Charlie would know what it meant. She stayed up late that night, writing letters to several prisoners with the dedication of a polygamous war wife.

Squeaky visited me a few times in San Francisco. On the way to lunch one day, she lit a cigarette, and I told her about the series of advertisements by which women were originally conditioned into smoking: a woman standing next to a man who was smoking; next, a woman saying to the man, "Blow some my way"; and finally a woman smoking her own cigarette. Squeaky simply smiled, said, "Okay," and dropped her cigarette on the sidewalk, crushing it out with her shoe.

Another time, when I attempted to point out a certain fallacy in her logic, she responded, "Well, what do you expect from me? I'm crazy!"

She told me that she had been beaten up by members of the Mel Lyman family from Boston because she wouldn't switch her allegiance to them, even though they'd had plans to break Manson out of jail by means of a helicopter while his trial was taking place.

"They're well organized," she said.

Squeaky mailed me her drawing in red ink of a woman's face with a pair of hands coming out of her mouth. Written in script was the song lyric, "Makes me wanna holler, throw up both my hands...."

Paul Krassner's latest book is Who's to Say What's Obscene: Politics, Culture & Comedy in America Today, with a foreword by Arianna Huffington, available at paulkrassner.com

 
 
 

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Arielman
Anthropology degree, shovel-bum
04:03 PM on 08/11/2009
It's odd she would say she was beat up by Mel Lyman's family, Wikipedia puts them in Boston. I was on a Greyhound to Seattle back after Mt. St. Helens exploded, $99 anywhere they went, from Hauppauge, NY to Seattle then air to Juneau to Skagway, to work on the historical archaeology of Alaska's first railroad station there, the Captain Moore Cabin, (riverboat captain married to a Tlingit, found the trails into the Yukon) etc., at the Klondike Gold Rush Historical Park and struck up a conversation with a woman who was heading for her grandfather's place in Bremerton, outside Seattle. She said there was another Family place in Eureka, California, referring to Manson, perhaps she meant the Mel Lyman family, he is listed as born there. My grandparents lived in Seattle for a few years while in the Merchant Marine on the USS Buckner. I'm guessing she didn't get beat up in Boston, MA, where I was watching "The Spy Who Loved Me" w/ my best friend's now ex-wife, about when, Elvis Presley and Groucho died? Summer before worked near Elvis' birthplace, for a new barge canal. When she gets out maybe she elaborate on that, Lyman's dead, presumably of natural causes.
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RealityBaseCamp
My micro-bio did not meet someone's guidelines!
09:36 PM on 08/09/2009
Interesting to see some facts we were denied at the time coming out about Fromme. Thanks.

By the way, it's "In the desert, you CAN remember your name." I hear this misquote all the time; was I the only one actually listening?
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marko77
05:44 PM on 08/09/2009
I remember living in the Bay Area in the early to mid 70s. On a slow news day, the local crews would take a ride over to San Quentin to interview Charlie or once in awhile they'd track down some Manson Family member still living in SF.

After Sqeaky tried to shoot President Ford in the 70s, an FBI agent said it was impossible to hold a rational conversation with her. That always cracks me up and I don't doubt it.

Charlie Manson seems to be an alcoholic type of drifter who found a way to have sex with young girls, primarily by getting them stoned on acid in an isolated desert location. HIs rants don't seem too different from some washed out alkies on the street.

In a Rolling Stone article in the early 70s, John Lennon said a few of the things Manson said made some sense, but added, "He's cracked, of course." True enough.
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LMPE
I connect the most dissimilar things
03:59 PM on 08/09/2009
Charles Manson was a sad case.
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dlo2
MS RN
11:18 PM on 08/08/2009
There were lots of bright people with hopes of gaining wisdom (they called it "enlightenment" from those often confusing 60s years. However with any mass and counter culture movement, you will have your severely deluded souls who ride the tail of such energy. I saw them in our demonstrations against the Vietnam war from Boston to Washington DC. For those on hallucinogens, it would have been difficult to discriminate wisdom from absolute sociopathic delusion for which Charles Manson and his ilk served as icons. There were so many young impressionable people in that era that got pulled into very wrong directions, not to speak of the innumerable cults that proliferated well into those years and decades to follow.

The brighter side of human society was the healthier urge to break away from the horrific rigid wrongness of the Nixon years and the wisdom of the youth of that day who somehow perceived something more enlightened. I don't think there was a more exciting era in American history to be young and 20 something...it was, in all, an amazing time of life witnessed by the incredible artistic creativity of musicians and music writers, unseen since.
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HamletsMill
All Myth is Astronomy
10:33 PM on 08/09/2009
Very well said. Looking back now (I watched the Woodstock Documentary on NBC tonight - it was very nice!) it was one of those rarities in society: Paris 1848. Berlin 1910. St. Petersbergh 1913. San Francisco 1967. The traveling mobile energy right up to even 1973-1974 still.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWhWMYqDNtk

What a long strange trip it's been. Something may manifest now. Maybe. Because the country is going down. We are in very big trouble and everything may yet break. We could gain enlightenment without a Titanic moment. We do not have to go into the water. But this country is going back to the people. We may be broke and we may be destitute when that happens. But we will be back on the good Earth with each other. And that was what those years were like for anypne who was moving about in those energies of unfettered Cosmic Spirit. Beware of the Mansions among mankind always. He was a predator not unlike our current financial system that had almost destroyed us. Beware them all. But do not shun awakening to raw and beautiful Cosmic energies when they become manifest.
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DHFabian
01:58 PM on 08/08/2009
Regarding the cultural/political realm simply known as "the '60's":
Too much of what today's youth know about that era is nothing more than mainstream media's spin, sensationalized and trivialized, turned into a simplistic, marketable consumer product. That's unfortunate. That's a loss.

What defined the era was the sense of hope and possibilities, an optimism that ended up drowned out by a culture that is fundamentally rigid, dictatorial and violent. Manson was one of several factors that killed the idealism of that time. Manson had nothing to do with hippies, counter-culture, etc., beyond exploiting it for his own ambitions; beyond that, he has ridiculed virtually everything about that era, often expressing his contempt for "hippies". But the media turned him into a marketable symbol of that era, successfully corrupting everything that the "movement" was actually about.
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PostModernPatriot
01:09 PM on 08/14/2009
Very well said. I cringe when I see Manson held up as a symbol of what "hippies" and the sixties were about.
12:10 AM on 08/08/2009
Paul Krassner is the epitome of the hipster, not a "hippy". The true hipster has a level of coolness which allows rubbing elbows with maniacs, such as Mansonoids, without being corrupted by the contact. I've admired him for decades. He's the ultimate "Realist", along with Terry Southern and Hunter S. Thompson, in my personal trinity.
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pammiethekid
06:45 PM on 08/07/2009
I can't believe I just read this.
06:03 PM on 08/07/2009
I found this interesting as anyone who came from San Francisco or made the trip to LA knows that everyone partied with everyone and if you lived in the city as I did when Manson and the family were there (before their move to the desert) then you probably dropped acid with some of them. This did not mean you bought into their weird race trip about helter skelter or wanting to move to LA so Paul Krassner (and no he was not in the Jefferson Airplane) like so many of us had a chance to spend time with Squeaky and so many others who did believe in the weirdness of Charlie. More then one "famous" movie star, musician or even a governor all did the same thing, drop acid with members of the Manson family before we knew who they were, but somehow they keep it in the past and do not seem to remember the 60's. I find it refreshing that not everyone claims they have no memory of that wonderful and strange period of time or pretend it did not happen. I myself would not take back one minute of my past even if it did not always turn out they way I had anticipated. Thank you for your candor as many of us are also remembering Squeaky and those days when the world was just a little brighter and we still had hopes of changing the very fabric of our society.
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writerforhire
03:52 PM on 08/07/2009
What are we glorifying? The 60's, I know, man "a good time for everyone, if you can remember it.” Except Sharon Tate and her seven friends; or an Acid Trip, also a good time for everyone except Scott Newman, son of the late Paul Newman and how many others who "knew they could fly and man, if you just "trip with me" everything is like WOW and colorful and the world well, is cool.”

Give me a break. Squeaky Fromme is an accomplice to the Tate-LaBianca Murders. She didn't participate and yet, she was an accessory after the fact. She was devoted to a cult maniac and may still be. Her kind, the disenfranchised who end up “crossing themselves out of society" make easy prey for a feed the need evangelists, Jim Jones cult fanatics or pimps; they wait at bus stations; know the look; feed the need and hook young, helpless, maybe not innocent, kids.

Yea; the sixties were psychedelic. I understand; you had to be there to fully understand how and why the former devotee to notorious cult killer is being idolized today.
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Jay Lewis
01:45 PM on 08/08/2009
None the less, in spite of your stiff and safe disapproval, the Sixties were a real and sincere effort to redirect the country away from where it finally ended up--the cinder of capitalistic ruin that it is today. Were your antennae as astute and confident as they seem now during the constitutional bonfires set by the Neocons and their silent corporate mentors, the preliminary stages of bonfiring our very order by the Neocon globalists, who needed to set fires to our social and religious cohesions in order to achieve the paradigm shift to corporate world order? You missed them, you say? I am wierd, you say? Notice how what you miss and what is wierd are predictably tandem in your simplistic cerebral endeavors. Perhaps the venality and the shallowness of your ambition blinded you to the requisite open-mindedness, the necessary objectivity of any true observer.

Was there some inelegant wierdness in the sixites and their metaphors? Certainly. The persona of any revolutionary attempt cannot escape it, since it cannot escape the mirror effect of that which it hopes to change. The wierdness of the sixties and its masques were determined and defined from that which was deliberately hidden from your countrymen; your ilk pretended to see Nixon and Reagan as impossibly inflated heros, and you subscribed to their spins like true believers. Those more astute knew that beneath was a slithering greed that could only spell the worst of all disasters--those born of betrayal.
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marko77
06:12 PM on 08/09/2009
winterforhire, the sixties was a great period of time for young people. Don't take Charlie Manson or Squeky Fromme as main representatives at all. You did have to be there, but most of the people who went through it were middle and upper middle class young people.
Most of the people were in university or had dropped out of it. It never caught on in the blue collar crowd. Drugs, sex, and rock and roll without anything regarding spiritual or political awareness came for the next generation in the 70s. Parents and adults had absolutely no clue.
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HamletsMill
All Myth is Astronomy
10:39 PM on 08/09/2009
Amen. Vey well said.
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Jack Straw
09:31 PM on 08/09/2009
If they thought they could fly, why not start from the ground?

Just sayin'

PS Never met anyone that ever thought they could fly.
02:24 PM on 08/07/2009
Thomas Pynchon, Inherent Vice
01:54 PM on 08/07/2009
The last time I went horseback riding at Spahn Ranch, I was slamming Shorty Shea for hanging out with a bunch of dumpster-diving trash, and he pointed out to the smoggy San Fernando Valley and said "so your going back to that trash, now?"
08:46 AM on 08/07/2009
Still milking the 60's

I thought I remembered someone saying, that if you could remember the 60's, you weren't there.
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DHFabian
02:19 PM on 08/08/2009
It surprises me still when I come across comments like this, which seem to indicate a level of resentment. Like they say, how can you know where you're going if you don't know where you've been? Most of the issues that were central then, from poverty to war, remain central today. So, it's a good idea to look back, to see what did or didn't work. Either that, or resign yourself to repeating the same mistakes generation after generation.

Maybe you mistake the attention given to that time for some sort of glorification of the era, a sort of massive generational ego trip. Nope. A lot of things went right, a lot of things went very wrong. But it was a massive learning experience.

It would do the country good if today's youth would stand up for what they believe, work toward, or fight for, the world they want.
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HamletsMill
All Myth is Astronomy
10:41 PM on 08/09/2009
Amen. Very well said.
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blastocyst
Happy to be here
07:34 AM on 08/07/2009
I saw Saturday Night Live's sketch; "Dangerous But Inept" with Jane Curtin interviewing Laraine Newman (dear Ladies both) as 'Squeaky' when it first ran way back in October of '75.

That image of Fromme's the one stuck in my subconscious after all of these years. Worth revisiting to access the zeitgeist of that period and contrast it against the staccato flash-card imagery of what passes for satire/infotainment in this day n' age.
03:45 AM on 08/07/2009
Thanks for this article, it was a great read.