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The War Over Prescription Painkillers

Posted: 01/29/2012 10:46 pm

Over the last few months, the Centers for Disease Control (CDC), the Drug Enforcement Administration (DEA), and several other government agencies have been issuing some alarming reports about abuse of prescription painkillers, and what the government says has been a dramatic rise in overdose deaths. These reports, along with another recent report by the journalism non-profit ProPublica, have spurred calls for tighter policing of painkillers, instituting digital databases to monitor pain patients and their physicians, and more aggressive tactics to prevent drug diversion.

There's no question that prescriptions for opioid painkillers like Oxycontin and Percocet have soared in recent years. It's also clear that there are some rogue doctors and "pill mills" who unscrupulously hand out prescriptions, sometimes to patients who shouldn't get them, sometimes to drug addicts and drug dealers pretending to be pain patients. But it's also far from certain that the painkiller abuse and overdoses are as dire as the government is making it out to be. And to the extent that there is a problem, it's due more to a decade of aggressive policing, obstinate federal law enforcement agencies, and the encroachment of law enforcement into the practice of medicine than lax government oversight. The DEA in particular has been scaring reputable doctors away from pain management since the late 1990s. People who suffer from chronic pain simply can't find doctors willing to treat them over the long term. The unscrupulous doctors and pill mills in the headlines have sprung up to fill the void.

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The issue takes on a particular resonance as the country turns to Florida for tomorrow's Republican primary. Florida was the site of the first big painkiller panic in the early 2000s, and the state has also played a central role in the most recent flare-up. There has been little discussion of the issue in the 2012 presidential campaign. But perhaps there should be. It's a topic that touches on important issues and trends like Medicare, Medicaid and health care; the aging U.S. population; the drug war; and, pain patients would argue, the basic human rights of a large and growing portion of the public.

The Problem of Chronic Pain

Chronic pain is different from short-term or end-of-life pain. It can persist for years, even after the associated injury or condition has gone away. For some patients it can be burdensome, for others it can be debilitating. Chronic pain can also cause depression, anxiety, sleep disorders, and affect decision-making. Because pain is more of a symptom than a disease, it can't really be diagnosed, so it's difficult to come up with a precise number of people affected. But in 1999, the Society for Neuroscience estimated that as many as 100 million Americans will suffer from some sort of chronic pain. The National Center for Health Statistics puts the number closer to 75 million.

Despite the recent headlines about the rise in sales of prescription painkillers, chronic pain is still significantly under-treated in America. There are a number of reasons why. For one, there's no diagnostic test to diagnose pain, so doctors must rely on patient descriptions of what they're feeling. That can be tricky, because tolerance for pain varies widely from person to person. Culturally, pain has also long been viewed as something we encounter and endure as part of the human condition. In many religions, noble suffering is considered pious. Pain treatment is also a relatively new medical specialty; it didn't have its own medical society until the early 1980s.

But the biggest barrier to effective pain treatment continues to be bad public policy, much of it driven by the war on drugs. Opioids -- morphine, oxycodone, methadone, and other drugs derived from the opium plant (or synthetically structured to mimic it) -- are the most effective way to treat severe and chronic pain. Emerging (but still controversial) treatments like long-term, high-dose opioid therapy have shown particular promise with chronic pain. Just this month, an article in the journal Science described another promising new therapy, in which large doses of the drugs delivered over a short period of time, shortly after an injury, may help prevent chronic pain from developing at all.

But it's also true that opioids can be abused. The potential for abuse has attached to opioids a social and cultural stigma that can make doctors reluctant to prescribe them, and patients reluctant to take them, even in end-of-life care. But pain patients and their advocates say the bigger problem is that drug control has taken priority over ensuring access to effective treatment. To be sure, there is a divide in the medical community over the effectiveness of long-term, high-dose therapy. But what ought to be a research-driven debate among medical professionals has been corrupted by policies aimed at preventing addicts and drug pushers from obtaining painkillers, not what's in the best interest of pain patients. Police and prosecutors now dictate medical policy.

Birth of a Crackdown

To put the current state of the painkiller debate into the proper perspective, it's helpful to look back at how we got here.

In the mid-to-late 1990s, some media outlets were taking note of the frustrations of pain patients. In 1997, both Time and U.S. News & World Report ran articles about the stigmas attached to opioid narcotics, and the plight of patients who couldn't find doctors to treat them. But within just a few years, law enforcement reports about the new prescription-legal "hillbilly heroin" drugs began to circulate. National publications like Newsweek ran ominous articles about "OxyBabies," which read much like the now-debunked crack baby stories of the 1980s.

In 2003, the Orlando Sentinel ran a five-part series titled "OxyContin Under Fire." It wasn't the first article about outbreaks of Oxycontin addiction, but it was likely the most influential. Reporter Doris Bloodworth profiled a number of people she portrayed as "accidental addicts" who suffered fatal overdoses, suicides, and broken families. As Ronald Libby writes in the 2005 Cato Institute paper "Treating Doctors as Drug Dealers: The DEA's War on Prescription Painkillers," the Sentinel series had an enormous impact.* It inspired congressional hearings, protests, and promises from politicians to combat this new epidemic. James McDonough, Florida's chief drug enforcement officer, boasted to Congress a month after the Sentinel series that his office had taken "aggressive action" against misbehaving doctors, arresting four since the series ran. Even the venerable Government Accounting Office issued a report, which also cited the Sentinel's data.

But in 2004, the Sentinel investigation imploded. The anecdotes and numbers the paper used to lay out the alleged epidemic were riddled with errors. Several of the people Bloodworth claimed to be accidental addicts in fact had a long history of drug abuse. In his paper, Libby lays otu how the the Sentinel's overdose statistics were also misguided. Where the paper claimed 570 Oxycontin-related deaths in 2000-2001, there were actually only 71. In February 2004, the Sentinel retracted the entire "OxyContin Under Fire" series, and issued a front-page correction. Bloodworth resigned, and the two editors who worked on her series were reassigned.

But the Sentinel series just amplified similar scare stories, inspiring national outrage and promises to implement new policies. Libby found that from 2001 to 2004, for example, the DEA on its own launched 400 investigations with its "OxyContin Action Plan," leading to 600 arrests. Medical professionals made up 60 percent of those arrests. The agency also set up hundreds of local task forces across the country, which carried out 9,000 investigations in 1999 alone. In 2001, the DEA also trained more than 64,000 state and local law enforcement personnel in how to fight prescription drug diversion.

Those efforts, which continue today, have cast a chill over the treatment of pain. Candor in the doctor-patient relationship, a critical component of any medical treatment, is especially important in treating pain. Doctors need to develop a feel for each patient's tolerance for pain, as well as for how they're reacting to the drugs and dosages they're taking. The high-profile investigations and prosecutions of doctors have undermined that relationship. Law enforcement agencies send undercover agents and informants into doctors' offices to lure suspected physicians into writing bad prescriptions. Doctors have then been conditioned to be suspicious of patients, to see them as potential addicts or drug dealers. Patients have been conditioned to downplay their pain so they don't appear desperate for narcotics, as an addict might.

The high-profile prosecution of Virginia pain specialist William Hurwitz is a good example. Federal investigators found that of Hurwitz's hundreds of patients, 15 had resold the the drugs he prescribed to them. There was no evidence that Hurwitz was complicit in or knew about the sales. At worst, he was duped by a small percentage of his patients. But instead of working with Hurwitz to catch the dealers posing as patients, investigators cut bargains with the dealers to implicate Hurwitz. Hurwitz was eventually convicted on 15 counts of distributing narcotics. In 2007, U.S. District Judge Leonie M. Brinkema sentenced Hurwitz to 57 months in prison, far less than what prosecutors were asking. Brinkema acknowledged that Hurwitz was a well-intentioned doctor who had made some mistakes, not the drug pusher prosecutors portrayed him to be. Brinkema added, "An increasing body of respectable medical literature and expertise supports those types of high-dosage, opioid medications," and that despite his mistakes, Hurwitz had saved many of his patients' lives.

As more doctors drop out or are forced out of pain treatment, pain patients grow more desperate. Doctors aren't permitted to post-date painkiller prescriptions, and patients can't get refills until their prescription runs out. So they may horde pills when they can, or seek out multiple doctors, often without telling one doctor that they're seeing others. Perversely, this also makes the patients look more like drug addicts, both in the eyes of law enforcement and the doctors and pharmacists who have bought the government line.

One such patient was Richard Paey, a paraplegic and multiple sclerosis patient who took high-doses of opioids to treat chronic pain brought on by a car accident, a botched back surgery, and his illness. When Paey and his wife moved from New Jersey to Florida in the 1990s, he was unable to find a doctor willing to administer his treatment. Depending on who you believe, Paey's New Jersey doctor either illegally wrote him extra prescriptions, or Paey illegally forged prescriptions himself, but under either scenario, even Paey's prosecutor conceded Paey wasn't selling or distributing the drugs. A pharmacist eventually tipped authorities off to the large quantities of drugs Paey was buying. Paey's home was raided by a SWAT team, he was arrested, jailed, and under Florida drug laws, charged and convicted of drug distribution, based solely on the quantity of pills in his possession. In 2004 he was sentenced to 25 years in prison, effectively a life sentence for someone in his condition. When Paey told his story to John TIerney of the New York Times, he was moved to a higher-security prison, further away from his family, and was put into solitary confinement. Florida Gov. Charlie Crist pardoned Paey in 2007.

Prosecutors claimed that no legitimate pain patient could possibly need the amount of medication Paey was taking. But once Paey was in prison, the state of Florida treated him with the same class of painkillers it put him in prison for possessing, and at the same or higher doses. "It became a comedy of bureaucracies," Paey told me in a 2007 interview. "One agency prosecutes me for taking too much medication... Then I get to prison, and the doctors examine my records and my medical history, and they decide that as doctors, they have to give me this medication... It raised a red flag in many peoples' minds that something strange was going on, here."

(This is the first of a three-part series. Coming in Part Two: The New Painkiller Panic.)

(*Disclosure: I commissioned and edited Libby's paper while working as a policy analyst for Cato. Neither Purdue Pharma nor any other pharmaceutical company contributed to the commission, publication, funding, or promotion of the paper.)

 

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Over the last few months, the Centers for Disease Control (CDC), the Drug Enforcement Administration (DEA), and several other government agencies have been issuing some alarming reports about abuse of...
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07:26 PM on 03/13/2012
Think of Big Pharma as the Mexican Cartel, your doctor as the street dealer and the politician as the law enforcement officer on the take and you will understand why doctor's (street dealers) prescribe RX drugs vs. treating the patient, the FDA (dirty cop) approves and Big Pharma (cartel) produces dangerous prescription drugs that are highly addictive and only alleviate symptoms w/o curing anything.

The sting is on and the american people are being hustled.

This is only the beginning, read more at:

www.therxfactor.com
www.jthomasshaw.com
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05:05 PM on 03/12/2012
remember Nancy Reagan sitting on Mr. T's lap hold a sign "NO" ? That was our war. Our politicians are making profit on illegal drugs.

I have several forms of cancer from Viet Nam chemical exposure., artificial hips, rods in my back, bladder and kidney cancer, two brain abnormalities. I am grateful for my doctor prescribing the drugs that work. My las cancer surgery was March 8. Yes, it clouds the mind, but it is better than sweating and vomitting from pain.

Pain is a DIS ease. Debillitating, irritractable pain is a lifestyle I prefer to go without. It kills marriages, relationships, thoughts of progress. The doctors in pill mills are there for profit. That is where you should investigate. A stubbed toe does not need morphine. The brain may forget pain, the body neurons remember, and as they divide become proficient at pain transmission.
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03:28 PM on 02/29/2012
Of course, the US vastly overdoes its policing of "drugs," and in the process penalizes tormented patients and conscientious physicians.
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09:12 AM on 02/28/2012
My doctors biggest fear s the DEA. I have to take monthly piss tests and made to take unwanted epidural,steroid shots in my spine which really don't help but it keeps the DEA off his back. My condition is proven one through numerous mri's, x-rays, etc. Yet everytime I go to the doctor I feel as if I'm doing something wrong. I don't sell pills and don't give meds away. and yet I'm made to feel as if I'm a dealer or something. I'm tired of it. I didn't ask for this life long debilitating injury. I just hope that bloggers are put into a position like I and others are.
02:13 AM on 02/12/2012
Pain Killers are a synthetic form of heroin. Interview a pharmacist. Its appalling this drug is legal.
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04:44 PM on 02/13/2012
Which one of the hundreds of opiates are you talking about? I find it appalling that the natural codeine is prescription, when many countries sell it over the counter. Yes, we are a country of babies, and our government likes it that way.
02:54 AM on 02/23/2012
I disagree. Are you going to tell Hospice patients who are in unspeakable pain to just "live with it a while longer" so you can NOT feel "appalled" by this medicine? You are allowing emotion to alter your judgment. This is evidenced by the language you used in your post(s).
Medicines are put into "classes" or "schedules" based on KNOWN MEDICAL applications and use, i.e., the utility of the drug. Heroin and Crystal Methamphetamine, for example, have NO ACCEPTED MEDICAL USE. Many opiate narcotics are listed as having legitimate use.
What I find "concerning" and hypocritical is the simple fact ANYONE over the age of 21 may go into ANY liquor store and buy ANY amount of alcohol for ANY reason while the DEA continues to harass, threaten, and coerce doctors, patients, and pharmacists over a LEGAL medicine. The DEA, like so many other government agencies/administrations, is overstepping its legal/legitimate mandate and overreaching to "solve" a "problem" which doesn't exist. If Florida doctors prescribe even a billion times over the amount of narcotics of other doctors, my response is: "So?" These doctors went to medical school and passed medical exams; it should be up to THEM, as MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS, to "police" (pun intended) themselves. If there is a problem, then LEGISLATE, make the medicines ILLEGAL or put a QUOTA on them. In my opinion, problem solved. The DEA should NOT be a "Quasi-Legislative" body which dictates policy (in essence, becoming "law") for medical professionals.
02:07 AM on 02/12/2012
This article is as if Purdue wrote it! I don't understand - if 80 percent of pain medication in the world is prescribed in the US - how is chronic pain under-treated?
Why is the point that these painkillers actually destroy the body's natural pain receptors, so people taking pain killers are increasingly sensitive to pain - which a normal person would not feel.
Why do children abuse this drug more than pot in high schools today?
You should be ashamed. This is not journalism - its manipulation.
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11:51 PM on 03/09/2012
So what experience do you have? I am an RN who was recently diagnosed with Lupus, though have been suffering with it for years. I cannot begin to tell you how I have been treated for legitimately looking for ways to treat my pain.
08:38 PM on 03/22/2012
80 percent of the pain medication in the world is prescribed in the USA because it is available without a prescription in most of the world and there are no statistics available from the parts of the world that aren't North America or Europe.
08:17 PM on 02/08/2012
The war is on people in pain-theres no vision nor plan in NIH or medicine to lower the prevalence of painful conditions. Despite pain being the major reason why people seek medical care and effec ts 140 million people every year at a cost of over 4650 biillion annually- 4X what it costs per capita in the Eu- the govvernment spends less then $350 million annually for research on chronic pain. And despite organizations complaining about the measly research on pain- our government would rather go after a red herring- opioid prescribers. Both government and medicine continue to fiddle while people in pain burn- the opoid problem reflects the moral and mental laziness of medicine and government
07:59 PM on 02/08/2012
The real war is against people suffering pain- for anyone who bothers to keep up with medical research-more and more articles are labeling people in pain catastrophizers- a sign that medicine will continue to deflect blame for the sorry state of affairs in pain care that has existed for decades. Its amazing how pain researchers say there has been much progress in pain care- when even the IOM 2011 pain report indicates that painful conditions are rising rapidly-clearly medicines efforts are a failure with regard to pain. They have no vision or plan at NIH to lower the prevalence of any painful condition- Senator Specter indicated that NIH stands in the way of cures for chronic conditions. The NIH budget for chronic pain is less then $350 million- despite the fact that pain is the major reason why people seek medical care and costs the Nation $650 billion annually and effects over 116 million Americans annually. The US pays 4X what the EU does per capita for pain. The war of uncaring in medicine continues toward people in pain as they continue to misdiagnose, mistreat and malign people in pain. Modern turnstile medicine continues to fiddle while people in pain burn- this opioid problem really serves to mask the real underlying problems in pain care which reflect an uncaring government and a health care system that continues their longstanding neglect of people in pain
11:06 AM on 02/07/2012
(Single) PS (to my PS): For the sake of logical diction, please have the clause reading "who failed just enough to be constantly vigilant and diligent" read, rather, "who failed just enough to be imperfectly vigilant and diligent" -- that is to say, unprofessional enough on rare occasion to effect unlawful distribution of opioids and thus violate federal (and probably state) statute.

A federal "Gotcha!" paradigm for such law enforcement has led us to where we are now: impoverished access for legitimate pain care in the states. A pattern of rare but substantial, irregular and unlawful practice should not constitute a federal case, I'm saying. The state medical boards should and must do their responsible best to teach those practitioners who so err by constructive discipline and probation. It seems plain enough, in case after case, that federal prosecutors, so unleashed, on the other hand, tend to pursue (and most likely, rather impersonally) a defendant's ruin and damnation via sensation. They use the wrong tool for society's need to preserve, and not diminish, the larger and ultimate issues of the overall public health and safety.

As the present article basically asserts, the latter incline their craft in such cases to take the art and science of -- including the reality of statistical error, an inextricable element of a carefully balanced approach in -- pain treatment medicine out of "the usual course of . . . professional practice," which, when properly implemented, is the gist of the applicable law.
04:14 PM on 02/06/2012
One way for the chronic pain patient to mitigate the "they treat me like an drug seeker" response is to represent yourselves better to your doctors. When they ask how you've been this month, instead of saying something akin to "not great", show them a report of your pain diary. When they see that you've taken your condition seriously enough to track it, they tend to take you more seriously. Of course, it shouldn't have to be this way. But, this is a practical way to help. At least, this has been my experience. ChronicPainApp.com
01:53 PM on 02/06/2012
This is severely effecting Florida pain patients. It's the state's fault by letting pill mills run wild for years and now the legitimate patients aren't able to fill their much needed pain medicine. The DEA has pharmacies afraid to fill any pain meds and not ordering any. FL pain patients are not in just a crisis here. This has become a dire straits situation. It is wrecking havoc on legal patients health and it's not constitutional to discriminate against legit patients in pain already. These people can't walk and travel all over to many drug stores to get their meds filled. They are in pain and state officials don't care. Are we still in the USA?
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09:15 AM on 02/28/2012
Yep that really works.
01:47 PM on 03/11/2012
Agreed, Donna. I have been in serious pain with limited mobility in Florida and on numerous occasions I have had to drive to up to 20 different pharmacies, hobble in to the rear of the store with my walker, wait in line for 20 minutes only to find that the pharmacy doesn't have any of my prescription. The process of filling my prescription of 3 different pills can take 2 days and uses over a half a tank of gas in my car as well as causing undue pain and suffering to try to find the pills that I was taking for a legitimate cause. It became so much of a hassle, and completely unaffordable for me to waste $30 worth of fuel in search of drugs, that I cut my own dosage down to almost nothing and I am suffering continually on a daily basis. The bright side is that I am actually getting better thus the pain is lessening and is much more tolerable, but to have to go through withdrawal while still feeling the pain you were taking the drugs for in the first place is something I wouldn't wish on an enemy.

It is now illegal in FL for a pharmacist to tell you over the phone if they have your pain pills in stock or not, which unfairly discriminates against the elderly and the physically handicapped.
01:53 PM on 02/06/2012
A PS, correction and comment: The misspelled phrase "died-in-the-wool" is properly spelled, of course, "dyed-in-the-wool". While its meaning is still correct in context, the misspelled slip echoes the fact of death that figured so prominently in Dr Hurwitz' eventual demise as a compassionate, trusting, though occasionally ostrich-like prescriber of opioids.

His last manner was dually fatal -- to him, the doctor, in one sense, and the careless addicts or misuers, whose accidental deaths were caused by overdose of several different drugs at once, in another. What followed over the years is paradoxical, no less ironic. Such vigorous, sensational, and altogether foolish prosecution of caring and otherwise skilled doctors, who failed just enough to be constantly vigilant and diligent, has had a so-called chilling effect on appropriate opioid prescribing. Such a clear-cut policing and putting away of generally dedicated doctors has actually harmed the public health by sharply curtailing access to proper care for legitimate chronic pain patients.

"Dr. Hurwitz maintains that he was duped by his patients, and that the enforcement tactics being applied in the War on Drugs unfairly target law-abiding doctors, leading to a situation where doctors must choose between providing compassionate care and accepting personal liability for what their patients do with prescribed medications". http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/William_Hurwitz.

In the wake of the Hurwitz debacle and tragedy, the current plight of legitimate pain patients is a sensible and responsible study worth pursuing.
03:42 PM on 02/05/2012
(continued) . . . the trial transcripts also reveal how Dr Hurwitz' lawfully dated but serially sequenced, multiple-issue opioid and other controlled substance prescription issuance was a story in itself within the larger, legal one. In fact, he never issued any "post-dated" Rxs to his patients.

To this day, in fact, as it did even at the time of Dr Hurwitz' arrest and trial (for other, far more substantive, alleged violations of the Controlled Substances Act or CSA), DEA recognizes the valid place and need in medical practice for the appropriate issuance of multiple presciptions for Schedule II controlled substances, such as opioids for chronic pain. The CSA implicitly provides for such multiple, non-post-dated Rx-issuance and the DEA implements this law at 21 CFR 1306.12(b).

The history and development of this particular, relatively newer regulation is a rather blighted one. It is, nonethless, a testament to how, in the end, when it wants to make perfect, legal and social rule-related sense, DEA can, in my view, do far more good for the public health and safety than some its more questionable policies and practices have managed to accomplish historically in the terrible, ongoing (though now officially no longer titled) War on Drugs.
03:39 PM on 02/05/2012
An execellent overview of a notoriously complex and, in too many instances, heart-wrenching topic. Chronic pain treatment and its related public policies in regard to the usage of high-dose opioids, necessarily at once both treatment and law enforcement issues, have collateral damages that, as this article highlights, simply cannot be ignored.

As a practicing pharmacist, I am no less familiar with Richard Paey's amazing, ironic saga as I am with Ronald Libby's remarkably informative, Cato Institute article. It was plain to realize from these and other readings that opioid treatment for chronic, moderate-to-severe pain is no simple matter for prescribers, dispensers, and, certainly not in the least, patients who suffer in the face of such pain.

Dr Hurwitz' arrest, trial, and conviction is, altogether, surely a tragedy for each of aforementioned groups in society, so involved with opioids both therapeutically and legally. As Professor Libby's article points out, the DEA (in meeting the exigencies cynically articulated by the prevailing political culture at the time) surely had a horse in that race, as it were, wanting Dr Hurwitz exemplified, contrary to general fact and reason, as a died-in-the-wool, pill-pushing peddler, merely trading cash for unlawful controlled-substance prescriptions, his distinguished education, training, and demonstrated ability to help chronic pain sufferers close to suicide notwithstanding. At sentencing, the federal judge captured the truth of Dr Hurwitz' general manner of practice, according to the evidence . . .
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07:09 PM on 02/04/2012
like I believe this has to do with anybody's welfare
01:11 AM on 02/05/2012
It has to do with drug companies and the government making money. And turning unsuspecting people into addicts while their at it.
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09:22 AM on 02/28/2012
Yep thats what they are doing. I guess you've never been in so much pain that you can't sit or lie down. Every day is miserable. You wonder if a life in constant pain is worth living. Well that's my life and I would not wish it on even you.