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Understanding the Psalms through the Cries of the Homeless

Posted: 08/10/11 09:11 PM ET

A couple of months ago I wrote here about my experiences on the streets of Atlanta meeting homeless people. Recently, I spent another hot day in the city with ministry colleagues. Our goal this time was simply to listen to people who call the streets home share their stories.

As our group gathered that morning in a weedy, broken-glass-and-gravel-strewn parking lot with a few dozen street people loitering in clumps around us waiting for another charity delivery of food or drinks, we prayed and read Psalm 55 together -- one of the most heart-rending expressions of both fear and faith in the Bible.

A half hour later in front of Atlanta's Gateway Center, a shelter and support center for the homeless, one of my colleagues and I were listening to a relatively well-dressed African-American woman named Talina (names have been changed), her hair bound gracefully atop her head by a teal scarf. She was expressing her own fear about her situation in ways that eerily and almost literally echoed the psalmist's words in Psalm 55.

Attend to me, and answer me; I am troubled in my complaint. I am distraught by the noise of the enemy, because of the clamor of the wicked. For they bring trouble upon me, and in anger they cherish enmity against me. (Psalm 55:2-3)

Talina was filled with frustration and fear. She had arrived at the Gateway Center because she'd heard they were giving away clothes at 10 a.m. She had asked the guard there about it, and she complained to us that he rudely turned her away with no explanation. What had she done to deserve that kind of treatment? she asked us. She was just asking. Another woman sitting outside on the already hot sidewalk with us explained that the guard has to deal with so much crap all the time he was probably just frustrated and took it out on her.

But Talina continued to share her story. "Listen to my cry for justice in the midst of the wicked!" she almost seemed to be saying. She was living with a friend, a precarious situation that she said would not last more than a few days, and then what? She had been evicted from her own apartment under false charges, had taken the landlord to court, but he'd lied under oath! she cried. How can they lie under oath and get away with it? So the court had upheld the eviction. She was "this close" to living on the street herself.

My heart is in anguish within me, the terrors of death have fallen upon me. Fear and trembling come upon me, and horror overwhelms me. And I say, "O that I had wings like a dove! I would fly away and be at rest; truly, I would flee far away; I would lodge in the wilderness; I would hurry to find a shelter for myself from the raging wind and tempest. (Psalm 55: 4-8)

Talina said the thought of being homeless again was terrifying to her. After all, she had to be clean! And do you know what it's like for a woman alone on the street? She was on her own, the mother of four grown children (one an addict, one disabled, one in college, another living out of the area) and had been the victim of a physically abusive husband. She'd had to get out of that situation for fear of her own life if not her sanity.

If only she could get some help from the various agencies and shelters and support organizations, if she could only have her own place, by herself, safe... but she said they only give her the runaround, or say funds have been cut, or they treat her like someone who's not worthy of help. Don't they know that they are just one paycheck away from being on the street too? She was a trained CNA and wanted to go to nursing school, had paralegal training, but she couldn't get a job. She goes to the public library every day to search online for jobs, send out resumes, and wait for responses that don't come. Why is this happening? she wondered with us, her eyes wrinkled with fear.

Confuse, O Lord, confound their speech; for I see violence and strife in the city. Day and night they go around it on its walls, and iniquity and trouble are within it; ruin is in its midst; oppression and fraud do not depart from its marketplace. (Psalm 55:9-11)

She told us story after story of how one person or another had victimized her, defrauded her, lied to her, cheated her, abused her, and she was exhausted by it, holding on now only by a thin thread of sanity and strength. Her life was surrounded by violence and strife, iniquity and trouble.

It is not enemies who taunt me -- I could bear that; it is not adversaries who deal insolently with me -- I could hide from them. But it is you, my equal, my companion, my familiar friend, with whom I kept pleasant company; we walked in the house of God with the throng. Let death come upon them; let them go down alive to Sheol; for evil is in their homes and in their hearts. (Psalm 12-15)

Talina said she'd had lost the support of her youngest daughter, a teenager, because her abusive husband had lied about Talina to her and shut her out. Other family members had ignored her plight, and her own family back in the Northeast could not help because they were all addicts. Those closest to her were no help, and probably would only make things worse.

As we talked with Talina and three other women sitting in the blazing hot morning sun on the sidewalk in front of the Gateway Center for nearly two hours, all their stories came out one at a time in bits and pieces.

There was Valerie, a 20-year-old who slept under the nearby bridge, had no shoes and a bad cut on one big toe with a dirt-caked band-aid she was trying to clean off, who wanted to be a famous country singer. She sang two songs for us that she'd written, her Allison Krauss-like voice sounding like an angel. One song had the repeating line, "my life is like a roller coaster" and was saturated with pain and fear, and another song was about an abusive father and a victimized mother who nevertheless had to stay with the dangerous man. Valerie mentioned matter-of-factly that she was trying to lose weight because she'd just had a miscarriage, and her ex-boyfriend, she pointed out, was among the rough guys hanging out across the street who frequently shouted and cursed at each other.

And Rachel, middle-aged, who said she'd just arrived downtown after living with a friend in Alpharetta, but "couldn't two crazy women live together." She was already creating new families here, having adopted at the shelter the night before a "daughter and grandchildren" -- a younger woman and her two children, whose stuff she was watching -- and a new "sister," Carol, a pale middle-aged woman with dark red scratches on her wrist, who had just gotten in town yesterday after being released from a rural hospital with no place to go after having attempted suicide.

Each one of them spoke of a past of violent abuse at the hands of a father or a husband or boyfriend. Each one expressed their anger and frustration about their situation, and yet also their acceptance of it, to one degree or another. Each one was grateful for the new families they were making on the street to support and protect one another. They sat together with their bags and suitcases, having had to vacate the shelter that morning and waiting for the sign-in that evening, and I listened.

But I call upon God, and the Lord will save me.... Cast your burden on the Lord, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. But you, O God, will cast them down into the lowest pit; the bloodthirsty and treacherous shall not live out half their days. But I will trust in you. (Psalm 55:16, 22-23)

"And don't talk to me about God," Talina said boldly, interrupting herself as she described her difficult situation. "I've had it with that stuff." She was tired about hearing people say God was in this and just have faith and trust him. It didn't work, she declared.

Later Talina's heart softened a bit about her faith and she later admitted that she really did believe. She explained that she was a Muslim and had been involved in some Muslim groups here, but wasn't really active. But she still had a glimmer of hope that it would work out.

By then it was nearly 12 p.m., and the free clothes hadn't shown up but now the rumor was that a bus was coming at noon and would take whoever wanted to go from the shelter to get the clothes. We left before the bus had arrived, and I wonder if it ever did.

After hearing their stories and learning much more about life on the streets from a woman's point of view, my colleague and I had to leave and walk to a nearby park to regroup with our colleagues. As we walked away, all I could say was "wow," and tears came to my eyes. I couldn't talk for a moment as the words of Psalm 55 we'd heard that morning became more real to me than ever.

We heard several other stories that day, and all of them were about places and situations utterly foreign to me. Many of these folks spoke of God, and of God's care for them in spite of these difficult circumstances.

God's story is one of redemption. There seems to be very little of that in these folks' lives. And yet I think of the families formed on the streets. Rachel had explained that we can't choose our real families, but we can chose to make new families. I wondered if that was some redemptive truth to hang on to.

On the surface, I have little in common with these folks, but when you dig down deep you realize "we are all just poor pitiful people," as an old friend of mine used to say. We hope and pray for the best. And we hope and pray that God is with us in the meantime.

 
 
 

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A couple of months ago I wrote here about my experiences on the streets of Atlanta meeting homeless people. Recently, I spent another hot day in the city with ministry colleagues. Our goal this time w...
A couple of months ago I wrote here about my experiences on the streets of Atlanta meeting homeless people. Recently, I spent another hot day in the city with ministry colleagues. Our goal this time w...
 
 
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brooklyncitizen
Soror quaerens lucem
11:22 PM on 08/14/2011
Homelesness is a growing problem in NYC anyone with eyes can see that. It bothers me tremendously and I decided to do several things each day mainly because they are all within my reach.

I smile at the homeless, many try to make eye contact and I say good morning and hello when they greet me. There is one guy that has moved me more than the others and buy him nice dinners and during the hot days and get him a cold bottle of water. Poor guy is still startled when I approach him and I'm a petite female. I try to be really respectful and say hello and just hand him the food/water and he says thank you. I don't try to engage him he seems unwilling to talk and I basically want him to be ok...to just have one need met in that moment.

I share this mainly because this issue is heartbreaking and overwhelming but if we can do these little things daily/weekly then it would take the edge off someone living on the street. I haven't seen him in about three weeks and pray he is ok. But there are many more to help.
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Ossit
Ossit
06:26 PM on 08/11/2011
All that and he calls her one of the "poor pitiful people"? Excuse me? This Rev. did NOTHING! He didn't take her in, he didn't point her in the direction of a job. He did nothing but exploit her like everyone else.

This article shows people the life the homeless go through and no one cares. Everyone is one paycheck away from homlessness and they don't care until it happens.

That's why I hate hearing the Middle Class gripe about all the shit they take for granted and say how the poor don't deserve this or that or the other thing. Then when the Middle Class need help everyone does. People won't help the poor. No one cares and we wonder why it continues.

I know this woman's fear. I live day by day hoping I can have this place one more day. Every time I eat something I'm grateful because I could go months without eating. Benefits are hard to get because you have to jump through hoops. When you have no support system it's tough.

No one cares about the homeless. They say how sad it is, but they won't take 'em in, they won't give them a job. They want the homeless to disappear.
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08:24 PM on 08/11/2011
A lot of people care about those who are homeless. And there are plans and programs (such as the McKinney-Vento Act which was initiated by a Democrat and Republican together), but there are more people who are homeless who need help than there are available resources for them. With the economy the way it is, it's hard for people to give when they're worried about their own families.

But some things the government does makes it even harder on people who are down on their luck, such as limiting unemployment benefits when the job market is so tight, allowing wealthy people to hide money on which they should be paying taxes, and paying farming subsidies to people who aren't farmers. And they are so powerful they don't have to explain why they are doing it.
03:26 PM on 08/11/2011
...and then I went back to my home with running water, a toilet, and food in the fridge.

On the whole, I have nothing against this type of outreach. However, it's getting to the point of exploitation anymore. Some of these people live their entire lives on the street, being abused, and begging for all that they have. Who is going to change that; God?

Ultimately, the answer to all of our problems can be found in each other; not an invisible God. An invisible God is not going to make food or money magically appear and I doubt, "God loves you" does much to console someone who goes through garbage cans to find food. If it takes God to motivate you to help another human being, so be it. It's sad, but it'll work.
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JayBachand
Atheist, artist, and dad.
01:23 PM on 08/11/2011
The following quote from Buddha seems a propos:

"Do not bother me with your questions about god. Do good and be good - and that will lead you to freedom and whatever truth there is."
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08:26 PM on 08/11/2011
And the Bible tells us to serve one another, so it sounds like Buddha and Jesus have the same thought about that.
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Dragosurfer
I surf, therefore I am…..
11:12 AM on 08/11/2011
Is anyone, or any organizatin addressing the root cause of homelessness or poverty in general? No, I thought not.

Pray with one hand, and crap in the other, see which one fills up first.....
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brooklyncitizen
Soror quaerens lucem
11:12 PM on 08/14/2011
I would imagine people are approaching it from various angles.ANd some from a selfish place.
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MrBwood
Religion poisons everything
10:24 AM on 08/11/2011
"We hope and pray for the best. And we hope and pray that God is with us in the meantime."
What a pitiful way to exist. How about instead of hoping and praying, you actually DO something to make the world a better place. Stop wasting precious time
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08:27 PM on 08/11/2011
Praying while doing is even better! :-)
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MrBwood
Religion poisons everything
10:18 PM on 08/11/2011
like I said , a waste of time
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brooklyncitizen
Soror quaerens lucem
11:25 PM on 08/14/2011
Have you heard of Dorothy Day? SHe was a nun and worked with the homeless. Amazing woman/
08:32 AM on 08/11/2011
You got it all wrong. Jesus is definitely a supply-sider. The poor are like raccoons, taking the easy way out.
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SocratesFan
Elitist who loves books and learning
09:03 AM on 08/11/2011
Wow, that's such an open-minded and fair argument, comparing everyone who doesn't have enough money to animals who dig through trash or steal things.

By the way, I was being sarcastic.

Jesus could not possibly have been a supply-sider. The concept hadn't been invented yet 2,000 years ago.
10:46 AM on 08/11/2011
The bible explicitly states the marginal tax rates for the highest earners should be no higher than 28%. I think its right after all that love thy neighbor stuff.
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01:12 AM on 08/12/2011
Are you referencing this about the raccoons?

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/08/09/jon-bruning-nebraska-welfare-raccoons_n_922312.html
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eddy joe
welcome to the machine
06:38 AM on 08/11/2011
It is baffling how the same atheists that reject God, embrace science. They have no problem believing that there are multi, or parallel universes, and many planets that have life, Some of them with intelligent life. It's easy for them to believe that life just popped into existence from nothing. They believe that there must be some civilzations so advanced that it would be inpossible to seperate their accomplishments from that of God. Yet, they refuse to believe that God is possible. That is not only willful blindness, that is animosity, and fear.
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MrBwood
Religion poisons everything
10:22 AM on 08/11/2011
You are funny, we embrace science because it searches for proof for things in this universe. Something that you do not have. AND you are the one who believes god popped the universe, and especially you ( since YOU have a personal relationship with his offspring, out of nothing.
And YES we atheists do welcome the POSSIBILITY that there is life somewhere other than this planet, but will not get too excited until science proves it. You are the fearful one, since that is the entire reason for your belief in god, you can't stand the thought that when you die, you die. Somehow there has to be a loophole. There isn't
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KrautMan
Carpe jugulum
11:07 AM on 08/11/2011
Aaaaaactually the scientific stance re alien life is 'chances are, but we can not know'. Try harder.
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eddy joe
welcome to the machine
08:48 PM on 08/11/2011
C'mon...we can all read the science posts...we know what most people think. Read the posts. http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/12/08/evidence-for-alien-life-i_n_793671.html
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03:35 AM on 08/11/2011
Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold -- Matthew 24:12

This is the only explanation I can come up with for how many people are in desperate situations and how they can be ignored by those who can help them. I don't understand how so many people can be in pain, in poverty, in despair and the "leaders" of our nation say we don't have enough money to fund programs for them, but we do have money to bail out banks that committed fraud against thousands of people--many of whom are now homeless.

I just volunteer to help where I can and hold tight to the promise of Revelation 21:4 that someday all fear and sorrow will be no more and even the memories of the sad times will be forgotten.
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SocratesFan
Elitist who loves books and learning
08:44 AM on 08/11/2011
And don't forget enough money to fund a useless war with Libya, a country that didn't even attack us.
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04:28 PM on 08/11/2011
Right. A country has not attacked us for decades. It was a group of extremists, but not an entire country with the approval of leaders who declared war on us.
01:15 PM on 08/11/2011
Well, I'm sure all the homeless people at the places you're volunteering at would be glad know that they are to blame for their situations because of their "wickedness."
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04:26 PM on 08/11/2011
No, the wickedness of the people who can help and don't--such as those in Congress who put lobbyists and banks and corporations above regular people. And I include myself in that, too. I volunteer three different places in our city, but I could do more. It's the selfishness of time and what is called "donor fatigue" that prevents almost anyone from doing more. Sometimes it seems too overwhelming so people think, "Why bother? It won't make a difference." but, as Mother Teresa said, anyone can do small things with great love.
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01:29 AM on 08/11/2011
The best Psalm passage is 137:9

Love that one!
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03:25 AM on 08/11/2011
This might help you understand it since it has to be read in historical context. This is cut and pasted from another site:

Psalm 137:9, if interpreted without recognizing the idiom is very repulsive, uncivilized and unChristian. But such scenario is not uncommon during the OT time (2 King 8:12; Isa. 13:16,18, Hosea 10:14, Nah. 3:10). The Psalmist desires God justice upon Babylon and uses an idiom describing a defeat or an overthrow of a nation. What we have here is not exactly a detail desire of a Psalmist to massacre the infants but for God justice to destroy an evil empire. Simply put, the idiom is a description of a kingdom that was defeated or overthrown, and that's what the Psalmist wanted upon Babylon.
08:34 AM on 08/11/2011
Sorry, but I fail to understand why anyone continues to try to defend verses like these when they're so overtly filled with violence and bloodshed. It is partially because of verses like Psalm 137:9 that I left Christianity.

And this part of the defense above should be insulting to anyone with any level of intelligence that reads the Bible -- "What we have here is not exactly a detail desire of a Psalmist to massacre the infants but for God justice to destroy an evil empire."

BS. That's not what the verse says. It says that those who murders children of a foreign nation that they have deemed evil will be happy and blessed. I'm sorry, Hlynn, I mean no disrespect to you, but the "you-
08:35 AM on 08/11/2011
..."you have to read this/that passage/verse in context" is old and becoming increasingly invalid.
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Ossit
Ossit
06:30 PM on 08/11/2011
Now do more, Tanroildu than just talk. How many homeless have you helped.
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innerpuppie
The truth is an absolute defense...
01:20 AM on 08/11/2011
"Attend to me, and answer me; I am troubled in my complaint. I am distraught by the noise of the enemy, because of the clamor of the wicked. For they bring trouble upon me, and in anger they cherish enmity against me. (Psalm 55:2-3)"

Today, those same words could be spoken by America's poor about the GOP and tea party.
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Ossit
Ossit
08:44 AM on 09/11/2011
We're too busy trying to survive to care about the Tea Party. We already know how the GOP doesn't give a rat's patootie about us. Maybe if you asked the Poor further down on the totem pole than the so-called "working" Poor you'd know what we think.
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researcher
12:57 AM on 08/11/2011
religion to its almost eternal shame is all about other things than the poor.

I take and serve juice twice a week to the poor people on the street only looking for work and to my knowledge in several years I have not seen one religious church there to help or serve them.

our capitalist survival of the fittest and religious free trip to heaven society has failed these people and themselves but they know not. preachers driving around in 30,000 dollar vans and six figure incomes and talk of the spirit is with us today in church then pass out the collection plate.

ask yourselves who did jesus have the most problems with? yep the religious leaders. look at the politicians that claim religious leanings. selfish to the core and bought and paid for by the rich and corp america.

join no religion including scientism and discover the underlying reality of phenomena. and it has little to do with selfish genes and a free pass to heaven.
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BurtonDesque
Fear a Blank Planet
12:39 AM on 08/11/2011
Focus on the homeless, forget the stupid 'scriptures'.
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somewhatodd
micro-bio undetectable to the naked eye
10:05 PM on 08/10/2011
"we are all just poor pitiful people,"

that's right, reverend, and as for who sleeps indoors and who doesn't~

Fortune Presents Gifts Not According To The Books

When you expect whistles, it's flutes
when you expect flutes, it's whistles.

What various paths are followed in
distributing honors and possessions
she gives awards to some and penitents cloaks to others.
When you expect whistles, it's flutes
when you expect flutes, it's whistles

Sometimes she robs the chief goatherd af his cottage and goatpen
and to whomever she fancies the lamest goat is born to kids

When you expect whistles, it's flutes
when you expect flutes, it's whistles.

Because in a village a poor lad has stolen one egg.
he swings in the sun
While another gets away with a thousand crimes

When you expect whistles, it's flutes
when you expect flutes, it's whistles.

(the dead can dance)
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Roxee
"Feeling" you're right, doesn't "prove" you are.
09:55 PM on 08/10/2011
Are you really saying that hope lies in the new families befriended on the street, and that praying will help these people. How about yelling from the pulpit to your flock that supporting republicans is not christian.
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SocratesFan
Elitist who loves books and learning
08:48 AM on 08/11/2011
Actually, believe it or not, unlike my fellow liberals, I don't think it's the Republicans' fault. At least, not ALL of them.

My grandfather's a Republican, and he doesn't have that contempt for his fellow man that's become so common as of late (he thought the marriage amendment act Bush tried to pass was a mistake, for example, and for another example he thought the Ohio firemen should've helped the man out whether he paid or not).

And Herrick Kimball, the author of The Deliberate Agrarian blog, is also not a money-lover.

The real problem is a corrupt value system that's taken hold in the entire country as of late; the Republican party just tends to attract more of these bad values since it's the party that protects businesses (small or corporate, i.e., protects money).
01:23 PM on 08/11/2011
Roxee has a very good point, in my opinion. I worked at a homeless shelter for 1 and 1/2 years, and I met a great number of homeless folks who were very outspokenly proud of the fact that they voted Republican. It's quite sad that any segment of the population can be so misinformed. You know why they like Republicans? Because the homeless, just like everyone else in America, despise poor people, and they put up every possible mental barrier between themselves the other poor. It's disheartening to recognize that there is not any solidarity on that level, because how, then, can we expect it from rich people?
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08:15 PM on 08/11/2011
I like your post. It's not Republicans, it's many of the people in power--and they could be of any political leaning. I have family and friends who are Republicans and they are very nice, kind, generous people and a lot of fun to be with--although we tend to stay away from politics when we're together! :-)