A couple of years ago, I walked uptown to Central Park on one of those perfect November days. The air had a bite to it while the sun shone bright. It was the day of the New York Marathon and I thought it might be fun to watch the runners nearing the finish line. So, I joined the crowd about a half-mile before the race's end at Tavern On The Green. With my arms resting on the cold cordon, I saw an incredible spectacle of people pushed to the very brink of collapse. I expected exhaustion, but what I didn't expect was to see just how much these runners had to EARN their prize. It was emotional. The pain was etched into their faces so deeply, you'd swear they'd spend the next 3 weeks looking like Abe Vigoda. I saw guys coming in to finish with bleeding nipples. Why in the hell were their nipples bleeding? People were crying. People were limping, hobbling, screaming, crawling. But most importantly, people were experiencing a sublime rapture that I couldn't even hope to understand. They were touching something magical no stalk-still mortal simply watching the race could comprehend. These people had accomplished something real. At that moment, with all the energy, inspiration and passion swirling through the crisp autumnal air, I breathed in deeply and decided something: I'd never fucking do that ever, ever. What in the fuck were these idiots thinking? Bleeding nipples. Bleeding. Nipples.
Two years later, by some tragic backwards prophecy, I find myself signed up to run in the New York City Marathon. Every other day I train. I run like a bastard all morning. Not since the discovery of Junior High School has a torture been so effective. Why on earth would I willfully do this? On behalf of my Father, Jim Reynolds, who's spent the last 15 years in a life or death struggle with Parkinson's Disease.
Let it be known at the outset, I am not a runner. I am a running joke. Waking up at 4:30 am and jogging anywhere from 11 to 23 miles has been nothing short of horrifying. Although, I've never given birth to a professional basketball player through one of my tear ducts, I can't imagine a worse way to start the day. Conversely, some people have real problems. I digress...
A year and a half ago, I had the privilege of meeting Mr. Michael J. Fox. Like so many before me, I found it impossible not to be touched by his story of overwhelming strength, passion and relentless commitment to help those afflicted with this insidious disease. The man is inspiration exemplified. Plus, he was in Back To The Future. Which was, well, awesome. In a moment of extremely poor judgment, I offered to do something big for him--I offered to compete in the New York City Marathon. Which was, well... dumb.
While I'll probably never fully understand Michael's struggle, I've had a first hand peek behind the curtain of Parkinson's. I've watched my father -- a strong and proud person who successfully raised 4 arguably insane children - slowly, cruely stripped of his independence. His golden years robbed without explanation. It quite obviously sucks. Witnessing my Dad suffer over the years galvanized my need to step up. On November 2nd, I'll join thousands of other men and women to march in lockstep solidarity toward searing psychic pain and physical humilation.
One of the reasons I chose RUNNING specifically, was because (as Murakami so eloquently put it) my competition is the most formidable foe of all; ME. The person I have to beat is the guy I was last week. The person I was yesterday. Indescribably worse, those affected by Parkinson's wage a similar war in their own bodies every single day. Unlike a marathon, their struggle won't end in a shallow pool of vomit just outside Tavern On The Green while waiting for an ambulance. They continue day in and day out, silently battling away in the most personal of struggles.
Yes. I'm asking for a donation. I don't do this with any degree of levity. I know we're in rough times and there are literally millions of causes worthy of your hard earned cash. It's my hope the story of my father combined with my own goal of becoming the first person in history to sob uncontrollably for 26.2 miles straight, may inspire you to give something too.
Please know that NO DONATION IS TOO SMALL - and certainly, no donation is too large. And If you don't give anything at all, maybe I've primed you for a future donation in someone else's name. For someone else's cause.
If you visit the site below, you'll be directed to my page on the Team Fox Website. Michael's foundation has raised over 100 million dollars in the fight against PD. On my page you can leave a personal note of support or mockery along with your donation.
In the end, no matter how much I mythologize this run, no matter how much I choose to romanticize this campaign against my own will, lungs and ambition... there's always going to be that guy who finished the marathon on a pair of prosthetic legs. And there'll always be my Dad. And Michael. And Millions of others who bounce back off the ropes against all odds. So, I promise I won't congratulate myself too much.
Finally, if you happen to be in New York on November 2nd, come down and watch. Feel free to bring a smile, automated defibrillator, or a fresh set of nipples.
Click here for my Team Fox page
On behalf of Me, my Father, and everyone struggling with Parkinson's, our endless gratitude.
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Good running to you, and cry your eyes out and watch your feet too, put those band aids over the nipples before the start and make them stick, enjoy the pure nature of the human bod in full flight. Run for you dad and rehydrate carefully and listen to your body too, it will have a lot to say while you cover the miles.
Take good care, enjoy the run, the finish and most of all the memories. This will be an amazing experience for you. Thank you for sharing your story, it helps me too.
Thank you for doing this. I gave a little in memory of my grandma, who loved me despite myself, and whose will was so strong, but just not strong enough to escape the ravages of her Parkinson's. God bless you sir!
"...my own goal of becoming the first person in history to sob uncontrollably for 26.2 miles straight.. ."
I'm laughing and crying right now, and only partly because you made my drink come out my nose. Good luck to you on that day.
Ryan, I have adored you since the first episode of "2 guys, a girl, and a Pizza Shop" several years ago and every episode where you were in one "medical trial/experiment" and the goofy things you had to do in participation of said "trials/ex periments" !!!! You were WAY too funny!!!!!
You have come so far from those days, my man!!! I wish you all the best on your run and on your recent nuptuals (not nipples!) - and I adore & respect you all the more for your commitment & conviction to honoring your Dad, Michael J. Fox, etal. Just remember, "SLOW & STEADY wins the race"!!!
Very well written. I am also running the NYC Marathon but am doing so in honor of the Leukemia & Lymphoma Society. I am already beyond words with what has been involved in training (injuries, chafing, diet, meeting survivors) ...and I can't begin to imagine the emotions I'll feel on race day. Every year that I've watched the race I've cried on the sidelines. ..
More power to you Ryan. I will see you at the finish! And you need to invest in some serious BODY GLIDE to avoid that chafing! It works WONDERS!
Congrats on your marriage. Look to the late,great Paul Newman for an example of how a Hollywood marriage can work,( i.e., don't live in Hollywood).
Good luck on your run. But if we considered healthcare a right not a privilege in this country, we would not need people to "run for a cure"; as you see people all over the country running and walking to raise money for medical research. Think, if we spent a tenth of the money we spend on defense on medical research, we could truly live our Declaration of Independence, by having the right to life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness.
Ryan, good luck and I hope you've been training properly: don't overdo it. For anyone else ever considering running a marathon, the book "The Lore of Running" is essential.
Good luck. You're running for a good cause. I wish you well.
Also, karma demands some punishment or humiliation from you after marrying the hottest woman on the planet, you lucky bastard...
;-)
Okay, now I'M sobbing. And I'm donating: o/b/o your dad, my friend Don and everyone else trapped by their bodies. It's a tragic thing to watch.
I'm running it, too, in memory of my grandmother and her fight with cancer. It is going to be a great day!
Thanks for sharing your story.
Please keep writing! This is a touching story but has some funny bits, too.
Best of luck in the marathon.
Post back to us and tell us how it went? :)
Ryan, my Dad died this year locked in a body ravaged by both Parkinson's and Alzheimer's. Thanks for writing this.
best of luck, ryan! i will be there cheering you and your fellow team foxers on, along with all the other generous, brave souls who have raised money and are honoring their loved ones. get some of that no chafing gel - it's a lifesaver ; )
OMG dude - if you can stay in 'the zone' as well as you write, you'll be apples! You'd know by now that it's the synthetic thermals that bleed the nipples. a cotton underlayer will stop that for you. and you'd also know that corn flour or vaseline are the choice anti-chafe agents. cw-x compression gear is also awesome for the run and recovery - probably the best compression gear of all actually, and worth breaking in with 3 weeks to go if you haven't already.
Hope that you write up your run for HuffPo afterward - guessing there'll be more expletives and even twisteder imagery, and best of luck with the fundraising
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Ryan, as a survivor of the LA Marathon, good fortune ride with you. A tip, get some small round band-aids, preferably the padded kind, to place on your nips. Lifesavers! A combo of salt from sweat chafing against your skin and shirt will cause bleeding. Watch for the bear at mile 22.
PS: Loved your work in "Dick."
Wow. Seriously, watching a non-runner see some bleeding nips and still decide to run is, in near your own words, sublimely inspiring. I have never been able to run, I need to quit smoking, and I admire your chops young man. P.S. If I could pick the person to play Repairman Jack in the movie, it would be you. Best of luck. Protect those sensitive areas.
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