The circumstances of Ida's coming gave me the great gift of honestly looking at myself, present tense, and asking, "what are you interested in?" Because apparently what I was good at, or what I wanted in the past didn't matter as much as I thought.
I now understand that we mirror each other back and forth. All issues others may have with me or my opinions are about them. I'm mirroring something unbalanced in them, and the brighter my light shines the stronger I will mirror them back. How it all feels in me? That's my stuff to handle.
It is no secret that cancer in its acuteness pierced me into open living, and I've been working ever since to sanctify that open living without crisis as its trigger. But can this be done without crisis pushing us off the ledge?
It's taken me 30 of my 49 years to realize that not being who I am is more deadly, and it has taken the last 19 years to try to make a practice of this. What this means, in a daily way, is that I have to be conscientious about being truthful and resist the urge to accommodate my truth away.
May we all learn from Steve Jobs' willingness to be the authentic being he was, to seek our own uniqueness and live confidently, courageously and creatively from that sacred place of true authenticity.