Maybe life was easier before Ella, but it wasn't full, or anywhere near complete. Going back could never satisfy me as it had before, because once you experience the deep end, shallow waters aren't the same.
We make plans and life takes it's own path. In the end, I'd say the big lesson for me has been about trust -- trust that things happen when they're meant to happen; trust that we're being taken care of by a higher source; trust when our intent is grounded in love.
Greg and I got married on a hot July day on Cape Cod. Two months later, I walked into the bathroom of our Chicago apartment and took a pregnancy test.