I loved my mother and thought I, too, would be a mother. But instead, I am closed off, with no woman in the past to look back to and no daughter in the future to look towards.
My best bet is that Anais Nin would have flung 50 Shades of Grey across the floor and said "Who are you kidding, honey? If you're going to read filth, read well-written, smart, sexy and good filth."
Her heroines were witty and perceptive even while being vulnerable and appealing; they were independent and capable, yet filled with that weird fear of overdoing everything or doing everything wrong that engulfs the most stunningly competent woman.
In F. Scott Fitzgerald's The Great Gatsby, narrator Nick Carraway remarks, "You can't repeat the past." To which Jay Gatsby replied, "You can't repeat the past? Why of course, you can."