If you are ending the year with anything less than a "Wow, what a year," then the change you really need to make this year is to enlist help and support to achieve your goals. Shared goals are more likely to happen.
Can you remember the last time you completely lost track of time because you were so engrossed in what you were doing or when time seemed to literally just slow down?
Admittedly there's a balance to achieve and we're running a business to make money, but where we'll spend our time has had the immediate effect of giving us both renewed energy.
I have to admit here and now that, in spite of having a business partner who is a tech genius that I managed to crash the hard disk of my nearly new laptop and lose EVERYTHING!
A paper towel seems wasteful at first, but when you consider that you'll have to wash a cloth towel, it could actually be 'greener' to use paper at times.
What I'd rather do is to see life as joy and see the pain as existing in the space between. It is like seeing my recent discomfort as a chapter in the book, not the book itself.
Whatever the result, whatever happened, it is all your "fault" (read "responsibility"). By adopting this stance, you become empowered to take on any situation no matter what.
If you are looking for growth, for breakthroughs and the biggest possible future for you and your business you may want to find an expert and follow their 'recipe' for success.