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Living With Hivaids

The Happy AIDS Memoir

Robert Levithan | Posted 03.10.2014 | Gay Voices
Robert Levithan

After almost dying from AIDS in 1994, I choose to pass on a hopeful vision filled with joy and possibility, but that doesn't mean that I have not also lived through loss and challenges. I am committed to radical happiness.

My Dad Died Of AIDS, But Here's Why We Told People He Died Of Cancer

Posted 01.23.2014 | Gay Voices

Photographer and AIDS activist Duane Cramer opened up about his father's diagnosis with HIV as well as his personal experience living with the virus i...

HIV Never Takes a Holiday

Jeff Berry | Posted 10.14.2013 | Gay Voices
Jeff Berry

For those who are both working in the field and HIV-positive, you can never, ever really turn it off. Wouldn't it be nice if maybe, just once in a while, we could take an HIV holiday, like Audrey Hepburn in Roman Holiday?

Coming Out Of The HIV/AIDS Closet

Gary Nelson | Posted 06.24.2013 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

Without PWA (people with AIDS) participating in all levels of HIV/AIDS awareness, education, research and support programs, there is no passion and therefore no motivation to move forward. Even if you work behind the scenes, it makes a difference.

The Face of AIDS Today

Derek Brocklehurst | Posted 05.11.2013 | Gay Voices
Derek Brocklehurst

Though I have remained HIV negative, the virus is, and continues to be, a part of who I am. I'm a registered nurse working in clinical trials in hopes of finding a cure for HIV. Yes, I said the "C" word. It's controversial and politically charged, but that's how revolutions begin.

Deprived, Not Depraved: Lewis' Story

Neal Boulton | Posted 04.27.2013 | Gay Voices
Neal Boulton

Over the years, Lewis and I became liver-recovery buddies. "Oh, I am sure I had far more fun," Lewis said one day during our first year of doctor's visits, after I declared that at least I'd had fun destroying my liver. "Indirectly far more fun, that is," he added in his usual enigmatic way.

What HIV Looks Like: Andrea Johnson

The Huffington Post | Jessica Cumberbatch Anderson | Posted 12.20.2012 | Black Voices

In 2007, 53,200 new cases of HIV were reported by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), though that number would drop off by more than...

WATCH: What HIV Looks Like ... Through The Eyes Of A Teen

The Huffington Post | Jessica Cumberbatch Anderson | Posted 12.11.2012 | Black Voices

By some estimates, sexual health for minority teens is looking up. A survey released by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention in July reveale...

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Epilogue): What I'd Like To Say To Those With HIV/AIDS

Gary Nelson | Posted 12.05.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

Try to see yourself as a leader, mentor and teacher. Remind yourself daily that there is no room for shame. You will find allies. We number greater than those who turn away from you and offer no help in eradicating this disease. We will move forward with you.

What HIV Looks Like: Benita Terrell

The Huffington Post | Jessica Cumberbatch Anderson | Posted 12.10.2012 | Black Voices

At some point in their life, one in 16 African-American men and one in 32 African-American women will receive a diagnosis of HIV. In 2000, Benita Terr...

What HIV Looks Like: Sabrina Heard

The Huffington Post | Jessica Cumberbatch Anderson | Posted 12.01.2012 | Black Voices

In its now 31-year history, HIV has never faced the kind of threats to its existence as it has in 2012. From groundbreaking antiretroviral drugs to an...

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 15): There's A Witch On My Back

Gary Nelson | Posted 01.16.2013 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

I'm saying goodbye to Robert again as I close this series. I will miss writing about him, because in a weird kind of way, I lived our life over again. But it was easier this time. I think I can spread his ashes now.

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 14): Jesus And The Crow Disciples

Gary Nelson | Posted 01.12.2013 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

The visits from Jesus always happened in those lonely hours of the night when Robert was alone with his thoughts. Were they merely hallucinations resulting from the insidious disease chipping away at his brain, or were they manifestations of his faith that our souls go on forever?

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 13): 'He's Got The Shugah!'

Gary Nelson | Posted 01.06.2013 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

I told Robert my patience was wearing thin, and then I asked him why he hadn't followed up on his diabetes diagnosis. He told me he just couldn't see going to the doctor for "every little thing." I didn't respond. My mind was somewhere else. I couldn't understand how this had happened to him.

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 12): 'It's Lymphoma'

Gary Nelson | Posted 12.24.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

"It's my bad blood," Robert said. "Look under my arms. There's no muscle." He took off his shirt and showed me his swollen lymph glands. Changing his clothes had become a private ritual for Robert when his health began to fail. He didn't want me to notice the changes in his body.

LOOK: Amazing Photo Series Captures 'A Day With HIV'

Posted 10.24.2012 | Gay Voices

On Sept. 21, more than 170 people from around the world took photographs which, presented together, tell the collective story of the trials and triump...

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 11): 'Anybody Who Gets Infected Now Deserves AIDS'

Gary Nelson | Posted 12.01.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

There were some friends of mine who stopped coming to our house, for fear they might catch something. One of them actually told me that they wouldn't be coming over as long as Robert was there. If I wanted to meet him somewhere, that would be fine.

David France's How to Survive a Plague Reveals How 6 Million Lived Through the AIDS Epidemic

Justine Browning | Posted 11.27.2012 | Gay Voices
 Justine Browning

The archival-based documentary directed by renowned journalist David France manages to be moving, disquieting and gratifying all at once.

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 10): 'I Want To Live'

Gary Nelson | Posted 11.24.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

Robert was starting to sweat. His eyes were filling with tears. He was holding the knife in front of his face. His arms and head were vibrating. The knife dropped onto the blanket. Then Robert curled up into a fetal position.

The Women's Model: Collaboration, Not Competition

Francine LeFrak | Posted 11.07.2012 | Impact
Francine LeFrak

In 1992, many people regarded AIDS with fear, deeming it "the gay man's illness." But Mary Fisher, as someone who was told to count her days left to live, courageously addressed the nation, knowing of the stigma that could potentially haunt her for a lifetime.

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 9): You're Alive Until You're Dead

Gary Nelson | Posted 11.06.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

Fevers, an occasional brush with bronchitis, and thrush were common occurrences for Robert over the next few years. Not knowing what was around the corner could be frightful for some, but Robert seemed to take it all in stride.

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 7): 'Thanks For Everything'

Gary Nelson | Posted 10.22.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

When I awoke the next morning, I found Robert asleep in the wing chair. I tiptoed out the door and went to work. Calls home that day went unanswered. That afternoon, when I got home, there was a napkin taped to the kitchen table.

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 6): 'Unforgettable, That's What You Are'

Gary Nelson | Posted 10.13.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

I told Fred sure, I would give him another chance -- and then secretly waited until I could make a discreet exit. When I saw no one was looking, I left. Before I made it to my car I heard, "Gary, wait."

Robert's Walk With AIDS (Part 4): Cool Water

Gary Nelson | Posted 09.23.2012 | Gay Voices
Gary Nelson

Loneliness can devour a soul left alone for too long. So, when Robert's case worker called him with an invitation for a Christmas party, he was anxious and started to feel alive again. "Maybe, just maybe," Robert thought, "someone will save me."

Lifting Up All Women

Valerie Jarrett | Posted 09.23.2012 | Black Voices
Valerie Jarrett

On Saturday, R&B legend Alicia Keys and I joined the Kaiser Family Foundation and the National Black Women's HIV/AIDS Network for an inspirational meeting with a community gathering of courageous black women living with HIV/AIDS.