You helped shape my character and my self image and my outlook on life. To call myself fat is to call you fat. I couldn't dream of doing or thinking that -- you are gorgeous and strong and funny and you inspire me every day -- so what gives me the right to say it about myself?
Self doubt and having moments of feeling like an imposter happen to everyone -- and I mean everyone! Think of the most accomplished and successful person you know. Yep, they've felt that way too. It's human nature.
Your negative soundtracks have likely been playing for many years. It doesn't help that we are surrounded by a culture that supports negative self-talk so this will be an ongoing practice. The way we talk to ourselves is a habit that can be changed with awareness and willingness.
Much as I wanted to lose the 25 pounds, believing that I shouldn't have to was more powerful. And so the weight piled on. And stayed. Finally aware of this underlying belief, I had a decision to make: pride or humility.